ICAN NOT GET RID OF MASTURBATION and INEED MY LIFE PARTNER

[Glaskaorgor]

I am feeling as an antichrist who will never be forgiven anymore am given chance dailly but Ikeep on failing the same things so Ifeel like Idont belong to this kindom anymore once I publish and talk about problems I normally feel better for a short period but things are back again

I was addicted to masturbation for a number of years but got delivered after accepted Jesus being born again it has disapeared for 3years but it has came back since last year. After inearly got raped by one of christian brother who was claiming to love me and promising to marry me then one day he took me to separate place with his car and tempt to rape me but he could not erect due to kidney issues as a result he ended up using fingers while iwas fighting and refusing but he forced until I reached climax.
It was painful and un acceptable I ended up having infection because iwas on menstrual periods. After that scene my mind was contaminated with sexual life icouldnt focus anymore its were I stop praying, reading word, fasting and confessing.
Then after that masturbation comes came worse until this year.
After that Iwas nolonger sensitive to any kind of sin ijust commit freely without any condemnation because iwas away from other Christian due to work issue as a result I ended up falling inlove with a guy called wiseman an unbeliever.

Ihave commited adultery with him many times physically and spiritually. Am now away from him at school but icant stop thinking of him icant focus even in class even at church he is bothering my mind. But my spirit does not njoy him at all its only flesh everytime itell that ilove him I always feel there is something leaving me.
Iloose joy am trying break with him and call him again my self.
Idont want this slavery life it is not nice it is hurting my spirit plz pray with me so that God deliver me idont want Wiseman anymore he promised to marry me but plz break that bond in a spritual world bkz its not true its just a spirit of binding me to darknes world anymore idont want masturbation again Ihave did it even today but its not nice at all after it. This is a painful life pray with me
I am now a liar
Thief
Unfaithful
Commiting adultery
Faithless
Fearful
Cant pray
Cant worship
My Name is Sweetness iwant my holly life back plz help to retrieve spiritual connection with holly spirit. I used to be a intersesor and seeing visions about church and family but all that is gone and people are getting into serious problems and telling me but icant pray anymore but ihide to them that am gone

 

[Yehovah]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Vickyzephaniah]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[queenve]

I Am Praying For You And With You In JESUS NAME.....

 

[Arelalaza]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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