Anonymous
Beloved of All
I wrote yesterday about the pain and hurt. I asked God for forgiveness for yelling at him and spent all in my prayer closet praying for forgiveness, my husband's salvation, and our marriage. Well I feel tortured because now their has been contact from my husband everyday through voice messages and phone calls that ask when can we get together to discuss divorce. Just a few minutes ago, he called my work and talked about the separation and divorce.
I am at my wits end. I prayed all last night and then this today. There is no peace from this mountain of struggle. I cry because I feel that God does not hear me or wants to help remove this divorce from our lives. He says that he is happy and busy with so many work social things on weekends and that he has no time for me other than to discuss divorce. He has new friends now. I am nothing to him anymore. I am alone and I want to die.
I was a good wife.
I am at my wits end. I prayed all last night and then this today. There is no peace from this mountain of struggle. I cry because I feel that God does not hear me or wants to help remove this divorce from our lives. He says that he is happy and busy with so many work social things on weekends and that he has no time for me other than to discuss divorce. He has new friends now. I am nothing to him anymore. I am alone and I want to die.
I was a good wife.