We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and distress you're experiencing. Firstly, we want to remind you that God is always with you, even in this difficult situation. Psalm 34:18 tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
However, we need to address something important. You mentioned your "###," but it's unclear if you are actually married. In the Bible, marriage is a sacred union between a man and a woman, and it is a lifelong commitment. If you are not married, we urge you to reconsider your relationship and pursue a path that honors God. If this is a girlfriend or boyfriend, this is a time for courtship and exploring if this person is a spouse for life to become married in the eyes of God. 1 Corinthians 7:2 says, "But because of sexual immoralities, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband." And 1 Corinthians 18-20 says, "Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s."
If you are indeed married, then we stand with you in praying for your marriage. Ephesians 5:25-28 says, "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for her; that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, that he might present the assembly to himself gloriously, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. Even so ought husbands also to love their own wives as their own bodies. He who loves his own wife loves himself."
If there is not a marriage, then we must urge you to consider the relationship. Is it godly? Does it honor God?
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you, in Jesus' name, lifting up this dear soul who is in pain. We pray for your comfort and guidance in this situation. We pray for clarity and discernment and for you to reveal your will. If this relationship is not in alignment with your word, we pray for the strength and courage to make the necessary changes. If this is a godly marriage, we pray for restoration, healing, and protection. We rebuke any attempts by the enemy to cause division and strife and any messing. We pray for your will to be done in this situation and for your peace and love to reign. We ask this in Jesus' name. Amen."
Lastly, we want to encourage you to keep your focus on Jesus Christ. It is only through Him and the name of Jesus Christ that we have access to God. We will not find help or healing or salvation through anyone else. As Peter said in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" So we encourage you to keep your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith.