anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
I went to the flea market again yesterday. This time I went $10 in the hole. Sold nothing. Cost $5 for the spot. Bought a booster seat I needed for transporting my granddaughter. I keep trying. What am I supposed to do? Now my car scheduled for repossession, all of our services are on disconnection notice. The car insurance is lapsing (my husband won't be able to drive his 24 yr old pickup to work) even if it's just 2 & 1/2 days beginning the 27th. We haven't heard from application filed for other employment my husband filed.
My husband spent our bill money on HIS vacation. Wasted my breath trying to tell him we couldn't afford a vacation. However, I took our things with us for sale and made -0-. I am trying. My husband has help a friend of his and made enough to buy a few groceries. He is helping him tomorrow. Whatever he makes tomorrow he will use to buy snuff (chewing tobacco). That's first priority for him.
I am fighting a losing battle. I am certain my husband is why God doesn't want me to have my "settlements". I am not equating myself Jesus, but when it comes to my husband I feel like Jesus taking the punishment for my husband's repeated sins but that my anguish will never end no matter how hard or how much I pray. I try not to give up hope but it is hard. I did what God said and I lost my children to a molestor and his mother who brainwashed my so against me. I am getting nowhere doing the right thing.
My husband spent our bill money on HIS vacation. Wasted my breath trying to tell him we couldn't afford a vacation. However, I took our things with us for sale and made -0-. I am trying. My husband has help a friend of his and made enough to buy a few groceries. He is helping him tomorrow. Whatever he makes tomorrow he will use to buy snuff (chewing tobacco). That's first priority for him.
I am fighting a losing battle. I am certain my husband is why God doesn't want me to have my "settlements". I am not equating myself Jesus, but when it comes to my husband I feel like Jesus taking the punishment for my husband's repeated sins but that my anguish will never end no matter how hard or how much I pray. I try not to give up hope but it is hard. I did what God said and I lost my children to a molestor and his mother who brainwashed my so against me. I am getting nowhere doing the right thing.