Anonymous
Beloved of All
I wasn’t sure where else to say this, so I’ll post it here. I desperately need to get it off my chest. I honestly feel like I’m the worst Christian in the world, actually beyond that, the worst Christian of existence. I constantly say I won’t fall into that sin again, only to do it again, and than the cycle just repeats. It’s like I’m stuck in a ever lasting loop, not only that, but I suffer from weak faith, it’s like I can never feel God, and anytime I try to something comes up that makes me question if anything im even doing is ever working, or that im believing in the wrong God. I struggle with reading my Bible, honestly I don’t like reading in general. I know I need to get baptized, we are commanded to. Yet I’ve never done it, not as an infant or even present day. Every time I think about it the thought of my faith not being genuine always haunts my mind. I feel like I’m just stuck in a everlasting loop of anxiety and overthinking. I don’t feel worthy at all for any form of grace. At best I’m decent, and at worst I’m the worse sinner to ever walk the planet. I don’t feel worthy enough. I feel like I’m not enough in general, I’m quite literally a train wreck.