Anonymous
Beloved of All
I was raised in a narcissistic family, my mother has undiagnosed borderline personality disorder and my life has been a nightmare so far. I have been involved in so many abusive friendships and relationships, have so many enemies and seem to have people beating me down on all sides. This morning, after what was a peaceful and calm morning, my mother started verbally attacking me in front of my sister and my niece over my pets for no reason. This humiliated me and made me feel so bad after what had actually been a good morning. My mother's family has emotionally and psychologically abused me since I was a child. Her sister is a narcissist and one of the most evil people I have ever met. She is constantly doing things to plot against me and has been since I was a child. We have moved cities and are far away from her but she is still doing things to try and harm me. Currently, she is using one of her friends (who is a gossip and a bully) to call my mother periodically to get information about us and sow seeds of discord. After these conversations, my mother is always more hostile toward me and other members of the household. I am also dealing with stress from a number of other experiences with narcissists and I am tired. I ask God every single day why He allowed me to be born into a family with so many abusive people who also claim to be Christians while doing the things that they do because it has affected every area of my life in so many negative ways. I feel very lost and I am begging God for a way out. I have a degree and I am trying to begin my career but the more these people beat me down, the more depressed I feel and the harder it is to build my life. Please pray for me. I want better for myself and the family that will one day have. I do not want to cut off contact with my mother because I love her, but her behavior is getting worse and worse and it seems that that may have to happen.