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AppleofHisEye
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I was married years ago, he was the love of my life, we divorced, I still have scars from the beating my heart and spirit took from how it ended, I pray for The Lord’s healing every day, afterall no one can heal your heart but Him. Then I was blessed with love again, a great guy, I never thought he was “the one†I never had a feeling he was, I never believed he was, I prayed that he was, but he wasn’t. I’m sure The Lord blessed me with him to show me that there is love after your heart gets broken. Then I met him. When I least expected it. That is how it always happens right? Have you heard the story about a woman who was running late to work and she got so upset that the cashier took too long to get her coffee and then she caught every single light and her patience was growing shorter and shorter and then she found out if it weren’t for that cashier and those traffic lights she would have been in a fatal car accident? So God lined up all of those events just so that He could save her life. That is basically how I met him. Everything was going in a way that I wouldn’t ever meet him but somehow God in His Divine Majesty ordered everything so that we would meet. During our first conversation I felt like I’ve known him forever. Have you ever felt that way before? Even though you just met someone? During our second conversation I put the phone down, as he was talking, looked to Heaven and thanked God because unlike the last one I knew he was the one. He was the answer to my prayers, the answer I never thought would come. Things were wonderful. Then all of my insecurities from the past, from my marriage crept up, and interfered with us. Ultimately the unresolved issues I have from my past is the reason we don’t talk to this day. My heart is breaking. I’m not saying he was perfect, no one is, but I look back and see all of the things I did wrong, and I let my past get in the way of the blessing The Lord gave to me. So my prayer tonight is that Our Lord heals us, that He heals us individually and that He heals what we’ve had. I don’t and can’t believe that this was in God’s will to happen, for us to end like this. I pray that He orders our steps and that in His Precious Name He brings us back into each other’s lives, and we get it right. I pray most of all for His Will to be done. I believe in my heart that He meant for us to have more but it’s not what I believe, it’s what He knows, so I just pray for His will to be done and for me to accept His Will as what it is. Anyone who is kind enough to carry us to The Throne I truly appreciate it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. God bless.
