We are truly heartbroken to hear about the pain and despair you are experiencing. Firstly, we want to strongly rebuke these feelings of suicide.
Satan is the true source of feeling suicidal.
God cares and loves you. I care.
Do not throw away the eternal gift of life. Suicide will only consign your soul to eternal torment in the fiery lake of fire. Remember even throwing your life away to escape your parents is what satan wants. You putting your faith in God will show you how Satan has decided to destroy your parents. Committing suicide is succumbing to satan. Your place in your family is to be a witness to your parents. Show them your love for Jesus and how much better life is with Christ living inside your heart.
Suicide is the taking of human life, something that we are not able to decide ourselves to do. Human life is given and sustained by God. Therefore, this is a sin.
Your parents must honor your boundaries. It is commanded in Mark 7 9 He said to them, All of you, listen, and understand. 10 There is nothing from outside of the man, that entering into him can defile him; but the things which proceed out of the man are those that defile the man. 11 If anyone has ears to hear, let him hear! 12 When he had entered into a house away from the multitude, his disciples asked him about the parable. 13 He said to them, Do you also not understand? Do you not perceive that whatever goes into the man from outside cannot defile him, 14 because it does not go into his heart, but into his stomach, then into the latrine, thus making all foods clean?
15 He said, That which proceeds out of the man, that defiles the man. 16 For from within, out of the hearts of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, sexual sins, murders, thefts, 17 covetings, wickedness, deceit, lustful desires, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, and foolishness. 18 All these evil things come from within, and defile the man.
It does not honor God to feel like you will be a burden to anyone. As it says in 2 Corinthians 12:9, "Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me." The Apostle Paul was able to begin spreading the Gospel specifically because of his time in prison. This is because His weakness which now glorified God was put on display and justified with Christ's power for the entire world to see. Your weakness, despair, and suicidal thoughts may just be one way that God chooses to begin revealing the power of the Holy Spirit inside you to someone else that will ask why you can be so joyous in such a hopeless situation and then allow you to witness about Christ Jesus to them. 10 For am ready to endure all things for the elects sake, that they also may obtain the salvation which is in Christ Jesus with eternal glory.
The fact that they are encouraging you to act outside of God's will is an abomination. "Bible twisting" should not be tolerated, as it is a manipulative misinterpretation of Gods will and Jesus's gospel message. You must pray against this evil act, as it can only come from the devil. Don't be arrogant to your parents but always show love. Do not ever say anything negative towards them. Show them your love for Jesus and how much better life is with Christ living inside your heart.
2 Timothy 4 1 But the Spirit says expressly, that in later times some will fall away from the faith, paying attention to seducing spirits and doctrines of demons, 2 through the hypocrisy of men who speak lies, branded in their own conscience as with a hot iron; 3 forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from foods which God created to be received with thanksgiving for those who believe and know the truth. 4 For every creature of God is good, and nothing is to be rejected, if it is received with thanksgiving. 5 For it is sanctified through the word of God and prayer.
You have mentioned that they are trying to mistreat your child and cat. You MUST intervene with this. Allow them no time alone with your child if even think they will try to impose their satanic. The love you are feeling for your baby and pet is the same love that Jesus feels for you. He doesn't want you to hurt anymore. Care for your child and obey the Bible's mandate to protect them. Much better to obey the word of God. Shout them down if they impose their ideologies or raise a hand to mistreat the baby. Don't engage in a boxing match but make sure they never do this again.
Matthew 18:6
But whoever shall cause one of these little ones who believe in me to stumble, it would be better for him if a huge millstone were hung around his neck, and that he were sunk in the depths of the sea.
Do you want to give them your eternal soul? You are an immortal being. Your decision to kill your body will torment your soul forever. Your wounds of pain from your parents now can be healed by Jesus.
Let us pray.
Father God, we come to You today in Jesus Christ to lift up this dear one. We pray they will turn away from the sin of suicide. God, help them today to find their joy, peace, and hope in You. We pray that Your Spirit of comfort would rest upon them now and that You would remind them for Your love for them is everlasting. May they never feel that their life is not precious and worthy. You came so that we might have life abundant. There is NO OTHER NAME BY YOU CAN BE SAVED. There is no other way to God that by the name of Jesus Christ.
Please, dear one do not depend on life through your parents. By the unselfish life and death of Jesus the son of God thru the virgin Mary. We are saved by believing in Him and accepting the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. We pray for this situation to be changed and turned around. Also Lord, I pray you convict these parents of their abusive evil and controlling attitude and commands. Only you can order the steps of this family to your glory and benefit for their eternity.
We say with Paul in Romans 9 1 I tell the truth in Christ. I am not lying, my conscience testifying with me in the Holy Spirit, 2 that I have great sorrow and unceasing pain in my heart. 3 For I could wish that I myself were accursed from Christ for my brothers sake, my relatives according to the flesh, 4 who are Israelites
Use your pain for Gods glory and to witness to others.
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