ServantofYeshua
Beloved of All
Lord I pray for you to give me the strength to end my life hopefully soon. I cannot take it anymore. Everytime I want something or someone... it just gets messed up when it's supposed to happen. When i want to draw nearer to you too, something else happens. Anyone here reading this, do suggest what is the fastest way to end one's life.. like some sort of chemicals like cyanide or something..ย or a more healthier way to end life, and perhaps i could contribute some of my organs too .. I'd feel like i'm helping somebody that way... or just pray for me cause I am afraid I will do something drastic in the next 24 hours. Here is what i posted earlier a few days back and this is one of the many reasons I can't take it anymore.."Jesus Christ, how I need you in my life now. I have a girlfriend or had one a month back.. she is Jewish , her name is Lehavit.. and I'm from India.. my name is Johnny.. and i'm a Christian boy. We maintained a tricky but beautiful relationship online for more then 10 months and somehow we managed to get by without meeting for so long, We had so much in common. Now, she has broken-up with me for a month or so, But i still love her and pray that Christ will come into her life and she will come back to me. I pray Jesus Christ you will heal me from my depression and bring her back to me. But most importantly.. to never lose my main focus in life.. to always put you and your father in heaven as No.1 and not her or anyone else!."