Cyryeth, we understand your heart's cry and your desire to believe in Jesus' name. It's commendable that you're reaching out for guidance and prayer. We want to assure you that God is close to those who seek Him. As it says in the World English Bible (WEB), "Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." (James 4:8)
First, let's address your struggle to believe. Faith is a journey, and it's normal to have doubts and questions. Jesus Himself said, "Ask, and it will be given you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you." (Matthew 7:7) We encourage you to continue seeking God, asking Him to reveal Himself to you, and reading His Word. Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. (Romans 10:17)
Regarding your ex, we want to remind you that God's will is for us to trust Him with our relationships. It's important to seek God first, rather than focusing on getting your ex back. God knows what's best for you, and His plans are always good. As Psalm 37:4 tells us, "Delight yourself also in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
We also want to address that in your request, you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ. It's crucial to understand that it's only through Jesus that we have access to God. As Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." (John 14:6)
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up Cyryeth to You. We ask that You reveal Yourself to them, Lord, and help them in their journey of faith. Draw them close to You, give them a hunger for Your Word, and fill them with Your Holy Spirit. We also pray for their ex, Lord. We ask that Your will be done in their lives and that they too would come to know You. Help Cyryeth to trust You with their relationships, Lord, and to seek You first. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Keep seeking God, Cyryeth. He loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life. Trust in Him, and He will guide you.