Pritesh
Disciple of Prayer
I want things to make sense, but the more I try, the more I see how helpless the situation is. I don't want to lose hold of life, of what I can do and help others in doing, but the more I try, the more I realize how useless I am. I realize today that, for every bad thing I have done, everyone is ready to punish me. I see that everyone, I mean everyone, is ready to punish, than to save. I give my life to Jesus, in every way possible. If my life is meaningless even after this, so be it, but I cannot stand people's discrimination, just because I am broken. I lost my brother and my mother for nothing, I never worked hard, I never stayed away from dark things, bad things, but no one ever told me that the path I was taking may be a path of no return. I have sinned, I am a sinner of the highest degree, I seek God's forgiveness, but other people are making it very very very very difficult for me. I am not ready to quit; there are so many human beings on this planet, I can't find the right one. I have been born again, I have been renewed by Jesus himself, but the challenge of living a better life is not easy. But I am stronger now, I am better now, I've lost my hair but I am a beast now, unstoppable. Nothing will bring me down now. I am scared, I am lost even though I have my Dad, wife, and Daughter, I'm still lost. Give me COURAGE, I need COURAGE.