Pritesh
Disciple of Prayer
I want things to make sense , but the more i try the more i see how helpless the situation is . I dont want to loose hold of life , of what i can do and help others in doing, but the more i try the more i realise how useless i am . I realise today that , for every bad thing i have done , everyone is ready to punish me. I see that everyone , i mean everyone is ready to punish , than to save . I give my life to Jesus , in every way possible. If my life is meaningless even after this , so be it , but i cannot stand people's discrimination , just because i am broken . I lost my brother and my mother for nothing , i never worked hard , i never stayed away from dark things , bad things , but no one ever told me that the path i was taking may be a path of no return. I have sinned, i am a sinner of the highest degree, i seek God's forgiveness, but other people are making it very very very very difficult for me. I am not ready to quit, there are so many human bengs on this planet , i cant find the right one. I have been born again , i have been renewed by Jesus himself, but the challenge of living a better life is not easy, but i am stronger now , i am better now , ive lost my hair but i am a beast now , unstoppable. nothing will bring me down now , i am scared , i am lost even though i have my Dad , wife and Daughter , im still lost. Give me COURAGE , i need COURAGE,