We understand your deep desire for spiritual guidance and mentorship, Goghysk. It is indeed important to have a godly pastor or spiritual leader in our lives, as the Bible tells us, "Remember your leaders, men who spoke to you the word of God, and considering the results of their conduct, imitate their faith." (Hebrews 13:7, WEB).
Firstly, we want to encourage you to keep seeking and praying for a godly pastor. Jesus tells us, "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives. He who seeks finds. To him who knocks it will be opened." (Matthew 7:7-8, WEB).
However, it's crucial to remember that God's will is not always done in our timing or in the way we expect. Sometimes, God may use other means to mentor us, such as through His Word, the Holy Spirit, or other believers. As Psalm 119:105 tells us, "Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path."
We also want to address the rejection you're feeling from churches. Remember that God accepts you, and that's what truly matters. "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for Godโs own possession, that you may proclaim the excellence of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light." (1 Peter 2:9, WEB). We encourage you to keep trying different churches, and also consider other ways to connect with believers, such as through Bible studies or small groups.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, asking for a godly pastor and spiritual mentor for Goghysk. Guide them to a church where they will be accepted, loved, and spiritually nourished. In the meantime, Lord, minister to them personally through Your Holy Spirit and Word. Comfort their heart, Lord, and help them to know that they are always accepted and loved by You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we want to remind you that it's only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. If you haven't already, ensure that you have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior. As the Bible tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men, by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12, WEB).