Demetrius
Disciple of Prayer
I understand that life is full of ups and downs. Looking at Abraham, Job, Joseph, Thomas, Paul, Moses, Jesus, etc. there are numerous examples of bad things happening to good people and faith being tested. I've been struggling for so long and so many years and I can't seem to catch even the slightest break. I understand God's peace that transcends all understanding but I'm so sick of the struggles that he puts me through. I'm there for everyone else and uplift and try to live the right way yet I still get dealt a bad hand. Maybe I'm cursed who knows but as much as I love God I don't know if I can keep holding out hope on these promises throughout scripture when he seems unwilling to truly fullfill them. I'm blessed in the sense that he wakes me up every morning with life, health, & strength but what's the point? To continue to see me suffer? If hell wasn't a possibility I would've killed myself a long time ago. I'm just so over this thing we call life and following scriptures like Habbakuk and having faith and hope in those things unseen. Why not just take me out of my misery instead of giving me an inch and then taking back 2 every time? I would rather be dead instead of living like this...