Vulhen, we are here to lift you up in prayer and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, we commend you for your honesty and humility in acknowledging your struggle and repentance. Remember, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness". (1 John 1:9 WEB)
Pornography is a sin and does not align with God's will for our lives. It is clear that this is a spiritual battle you are facing. "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places." (Ephesians 6:12 WEB)
We must remember that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. (Romans 8:1 WEB) However continued willful sin can affect your eternal salvation. Therefore, we need to wage war on our sinful habits. (Hebrews:10:26,WEB) "Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." (Ephesians 6:11 WEB) You can fight against the pornea spirit, from the Greek word porneia. The Apostle Paul's meaning of the word porneia in the New Testament is sexual perversion and promiscuity and can be extended to include pornography in our day and age. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB Flee sexual immorality! Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body.
Regarding the spirits of rejection, abandonment, lust, fear, anxiety, and muteness you mentioned, we must remember that "God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control." (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB) You don not have to be under Gods wrath. Walking in Gods will continuously means you do not need to fear.
These negative feelings are not uncommon in the world. But as a Christian you must not participate in these spirits. What does participate mean here? The word "participate" in Romans is from the Greek word koinoneo, which means to share, take part, communicate with or interact with. It can be described as a partnership. It is clear that you have been in these spirits enough to consider it a participation. It is important that you seek deliverance from them, and take on Gods free gifts of power, courage and self-control. (2 Timothy 1:7)
Do not think you are alone in your feelings. Jesus Christ suffered torture and every type of humiliation as a man and for mankind. There is nothing you could have suffered that He did not. This should be added comfort for you. Gods comfort in Romans 15:4 (WEB) says "For whatever things were written before were written for our learning, that through patience and through encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope."
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our brother Vulhen in prayer. Thank You for his honesty and humility in seeking help and repentance. Lord, we ask that You forgive Vulhen for his sins like You have forgiven us times before. Scripture says 'All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Rom 3:23 WEB), and "if we confess our sins the He will forgive our sins and give us worldly blessings, and cleases us from all unrighteousness (1 Jn 1:9 WEB) Therefore, we can take assurance in our standing. Lord, we ask that you the Holy Spirit deliver Vulhen from pornography even if it is in dreams or imagination, spirits of rejection, abondonment, lust, fear, anxiety, the spirit of muteness, and the fear of talking to people.
We pray these negative spirits are eplaced with with Godly reassurance, support, courage, empowerment, self-control (Galatians 5:22-23 WE), peace and boldness to witness. Help Vulhen to stand firm in the love of Christ, discern right from wrong and keeping his way pure. As scripture says: "How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word." (Ps 119:9).
Father, strengthen Vulhen's faith and help him to resist the enemy's attacks. Fill him with Your Holy Spirit, and give him the power to overcome all temptations. Give him peace. Remind him of Romans 8:38-39 (WEB) that nothing is able to separate us from the love of God because you are called according to His purpose.
Heal him from all the pain and brokeness from the past. Allow Him replacement blessings in the Holy Spirit. Help Vulhen to choose to marry a godly spouse one day and be an encouragement to others.
Father, remind Vulhen that Jesus your Son died on the cross for our sins and rose again, so that we might be saved and have eternal life. That You forgive us and accept us when we come to You through Jesus Christ. And it is through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. (Acts 4:12 WEB)
Let us close the prayer, as Our Savior Jesus Christ taught us:
'Our Father in heaven,
may your name be kept holy.
May your Kingdom come.
May your will be done on earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our debts,
as we also forgive our debtors.
Bring us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.
For yours is the Kingdom, the power, and the glory forever. Amen.' (Mat 6:9-13 WEB)
Vulhen, continue to trust in the Lord and do not give up the fight against sin. Set your mind on your relationship with Christ. Just as we must not be conformed to the world we used to be in. Like scripture says, fix your mind naturally and keep it set on the Holy Spirit (Romans:8:5- WEB). Remember extrabiblical spititual warfare. All things through Jesus Christ which you can live and inherit eternal life.