I realized today that people who I thought were my friends really aren't. I was told I am annoying and more. I also realized my depression and anxiety are actually not unfounded and that my feelings were validated today about not being liked....my co-workers, friends etc . It hurts a lot and I feel more alone then ever. I try to be a good person and I guess I am not because I have no friends. At this moment, my heart is hurting and broken. My depression is the worst it has ever been....all I wanted was to be cared about and be a good friend back and do well at my job. Please pray that things turn around....can't take much more and I want so desperately to go home, I am tired