Lettinggod
Servant of All
I prayed to god and god speaks but nothing is happening. I am officially broke. I wont make it past next week financial unless I refuse to pay some bills. The devil broke my spirit by taking my son from me and now he has broken me financially. I prayed and you all prayed for me but it did not matter. I believed and it still did not matter. I had my son with me this week and all that has happened is he complained about how things are now different, he states how he is struggling with his mom and his mom has done the best she can to make sure he had thing to do so she can be apart of his week. Nothing I could do about it either. Father and son time has become more mother and son time. My girlfriend continues to isolate him and ruin out relationship by bashing his mother and yelling at both me and him. She has isolated both me and him from our son together. The crazy thing is God said it would happen and it did. How can I pray to god to save me when all god does is say you shall suffer. How can I come here and pray that God blesses me and when leave the site only to suffer. I am officially broke and broken. I will not make it past this week. The devil has won and my purpose is lost. I wanted to come here today to have you all pray for me to find a job today or by the end of next week in order for me to make it financially but I feel in my heart that will not happen.
. I am thankful for the prayers but I guess my purpose what not what I thought it was suppose to be. Rather than be an example of Gods grace and favor. I have become and example of not fulfilling the potential I once had or believed I had. I have no idea how I am going to take care of myself or my family. I never use to be so down or doubtful. I can't even rise to get myself back up. Father, You made me a father to be the man who I am suppose to be but I have failed as a man and nothing I do to be a good father matters if the devils plans was to stop me from being one. He has won. Father I need a job not later but now. I believe, well I want to believe I will find a job soon but I needed one sooner than soon. Father I am not going to make it. Amen
. I am thankful for the prayers but I guess my purpose what not what I thought it was suppose to be. Rather than be an example of Gods grace and favor. I have become and example of not fulfilling the potential I once had or believed I had. I have no idea how I am going to take care of myself or my family. I never use to be so down or doubtful. I can't even rise to get myself back up. Father, You made me a father to be the man who I am suppose to be but I have failed as a man and nothing I do to be a good father matters if the devils plans was to stop me from being one. He has won. Father I need a job not later but now. I believe, well I want to believe I will find a job soon but I needed one sooner than soon. Father I am not going to make it. Amen
