Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray to be healed spiritually, mentally, and physically. I pray for great health, a new home, a new job, a new car, and a new iPhone. I pray to be healed from my past and to be forgiven for all of my sins. I pray for strength and protection from my enemies. I pray for forgiveness to myself for saying something bad about someone and something bad ended up happening to them, and I still feel guilty about it. I pray to be taken off medication for schizophrenia and for the diagnosis to come off of my medical records as well. I pray that my fingers heal and that my body heals. I've been stressed out for a very long time and working at jobs that didn't pay me much. I pray that I find a good job so I can afford to buy things that I want and need. I pray to be healed from mild scoliosis and to be healed from the tear in my back. I've been going through changes with my body for a while and still feel uncomfortable about it. I pray that the nerves in my body heal, the nerves in my legs don't feel the same, and I feel like the man upstairs put a curse on me and I haven't been feeling like myself. I feel guilty about a lot of things I've done in the past and ask to be forgiven. I pray for my stomach to get flat; it seems like no matter what I do, it won't go down or it would go down then get right back big, and I always had a flat stomach. I pray that my private area heals; it doesn't seem as healthy as it should be, and I feel like the neighbor upstairs and my brother did something to me. My brother always used to open up the door very slowly whenever he would come inside the house; it's like he would start shaking keys before he came inside the house, and I could feel his negative energy, and that made me uncomfortable, so I would position myself in odd positions so I wouldn't have to face him, and he wouldn't speak to me inside the house and would walk right past me and not talk to me and start saying bad things about me to my cousin, and they both wouldn't speak to me. He and my other two cousins would be over my aunt's house having conversations with each other, and I felt like they wouldn't speak with me as much. My brother threatened to put his hands on me and said he would slap me. I never got over that; there's a lot of trauma behind the things that some of these people in my family have put me through. My brother doesn't like anybody, and he roams the streets; he doesn't work and competes with me because he was saying how he would be the first in the family to have a child and how I was a bad person. He was jealous when I had a boyfriend and said, "How come he gets to come over?" That guy is very strange, and he did something when it was just me and my boyfriend in the room. He came inside the room to use the bathroom when he has his own bathroom, and I had company over, which was strange to me, and it made my boyfriend feel very uncomfortable because he was asleep and had his shirt off. I just pray to be protected from this man and to be healed so I can have a happy, healthy life and carry on. I feel like something is wrong with my body. I wore shoes that were tight around my ankles, and my veins in my foot felt suffocated. I pray that my body and foot begin to heal; it happened on both sides of my feet, and I just pray for healing. My mother used to sweep near my feet with a broom while I'd be walking, and I would be walking really fast to get out of her way, and she would follow me with the broom. She never wanted me to have my own room and said I was going to be back inside the hospital and that I was messing myself up. She said that I would never get better. She talked about when I got thrown out of the house; she said that I wasn't acting right and I didn't do anything to her. She doesn't want me to talk or to move things around. She tried to move my things around in her room, and I didn't want my things in the spot she had them, and she would hide my shoes. When I would grab money from her, she would not give it to me in my hand and would make me reach for it, and as soon as I got out of the car, she would pull off on me. She would clean the entire house and tell me to sit down in the bed and not come out of the room; it was awful and very painful. She would talk bad about me to people and act shocked or surprised if they would talk to me. She was not right, and I couldn't take the negativity, and I still hung around her. She would curse at me and say a lot of mean things to me, and I can feel her moving around in the house. She was competing with me and trying to walk better than me when I was with her in New York, and she almost got hit by a car. She didn't want to come to my graduation; she didn't compliment me for having good grades; it was fake, and I felt like she could have been a better supporter. She always would ask me to send her pictures and would show them to people, but I felt like she wouldn't speak to me if I looked a certain way. That woman is crazy and has mental problems. I pray for better days and for a new home; that lady is negative and bad vibes. I pray for strength and to heal from all the stress and fake energy she put me through. She even said she would rather my friend be her daughter instead of me. She's not a good person; she said a lot of things to me that bothered me, and I would still feel as if I needed her to survive or to do things for me. She doesn't take me anywhere with her; she goes by herself and leaves me home and then talks down on me. I want my health to get better so I can move away from her and have my own place so I can heal, relax, and be my true self. I felt like I didn't have that growing up, and I'm just asking for some sort of healing. I pray for my neck, arms, and hands for everything to be healed. I feel like a walking muscle spasm, and like something is inside my body; something doesn't feel right, and I felt this way for a while. I remember I was walking in the park, and my feet felt strange; it's like I was walking crooked, even my private areas felt strange, and I didn't know what to do. The people said I was depressed or stressed, but I felt like something else was happening to me. I pray for healing and that I get back to myself. I pray that I can learn to love myself again and that my body can heal so I can feel happy and comfortable with myself. I feel like the neighbors didn't want that for me or my family. I pray for strength and to be healed. I pray for good health.
