Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray to be healed spiritually mentally and physically. I pray for great health, a new home, a new job, a new car and a new iphone. I pray to be healed from my past and to be forgiven from all of my sins. I pray for strength and protection from my enemies. I pray for forgiveness to myself for saying something bad about someone and something bad ended up happening to them and I still feel guilty about it. I pray to be taken off medication for schizophrenia and for the diagnosis to come off of my medical records as well. I pray that my fingers heal and that my body heals I been stressed out for a very long time and working at jobs that didn't pay me much. I pray that I find a good job so I can afford to buy things that I want and need. I pray to be healed from mild scoliosis and to be healed from the tear in back. I been going through changes with my body for a while and still feel uncomfortable about it I pray that the nerves in body heal the nerves in my legs don't feel the same I feel like the man upstairs put a curse on me and I haven't been feeling like myself I feel guilty about a lot of things I done in the past and asked to be forgiven I pray for my stomach to get flat it seem like no matter whatever I do it won't go down or it would go down then get right back big and I always had a flat stomach I pray that my private area heals it don't seem as healthy as it should be and I feel like the neighbor upstairs and my brother done something to me my brother always used to open up the door very slow whenever he would come inside the house it's like he would start shaking keys before he come inside the house and I could feel his negative energy and that made me uncomfortable so I would position myself in odd positions so I wouldn't have to face him and he wouldn't speak to me inside the house and he would walk right past me and not talk to me and start saying bad things about me to my cousin and they both wouldn't speak to me him and my other two cousins would be over my aunt's house having conversations with each other and I felt like they wouldn't speak with me as much and my brother threatened to put his hands me before and said he would slap me I never got over that there's a lot of trauma behind the things that some of these people in my family had put me through my brother don't like nobody and he roam the streets he don't work and he compete with me because he was saying how he would be the first in the family to have a child and how I was a bad person he was jealous when I had a bf and said how come he get to come over? That guy is very strange and he did something when it was just me and my bf in the room he came inside the room to use the bathroom when he has his own bathroom and I had company over that was strange to me and it made my bf feel very uncomfortable because he was asleep and had his shirt off I just pray to be protected from this man and to be healed so I can have a happy healthy life and carry on I feel like something is wrong with my body I wore these shoes that were tight around my ankles and my veins in my foot felt suffocated I pray that my body and foot begins to heal it happened on both sides of my feet and I just pray for healing my mother used to sweep near my feet with a broom while I'll be walking and I would be walking really fast to get out of her way and she would follow me with the broom and she never wanted me to have my own room and said I was going to be back inside the hospital and that I was messing myself up she said that I would never get better she talked about when I got thrown out of the house she said that I wasn't acting right and I didn't do anything to her she don't want me to talk or to move things around she tried to move my things around in her room and I didn't want my things in the spot she had them and she would hide my shoes and when I would grab money from her she would not give me the money in my hand and she would make me reach for it and as soon as I got out the car she would pull off on me and she would clean the entire house and tell me to sit down in the bed and to not come out the room it was awful very painful and she would talk bad about me to people and act shocked or surprised if they would talk to me she was not right and I couldn't take the negativity and I still hung around her she would curse at me and say a lot of mean things to me and I can feel her moving around in the house she was competing with me and trying to walk better then me when I was with her in new York and she almost got hit by a car she didn't want to come to my graduation she didn't compliment me for having good grades it was fake and I felt like she could have been a better supporter and she always would ask me to send her pictures and she would show them to people but I felt like she wouldn't speak to me if I looked a certain way that woman is crazy and have mental problems I pray for better days and for a new home that lady is negative and bad vibes I pray for strength and to heal from all the stress fake energy she put me through she even said she would rather my friend be her daughter instead of me she's not a good person she said a lot of things to me that bothered me and I would still feel as if I needed her to survive or to do things for me she don't take me no where with her she go by herself and leave me home and then talk down on me I want my health to get better so I can move away from her and have my own place so I can heal and relax and be my true self I felt like I didn't have that growing up and just asking for some sort of healing I pray for my neck and arms and hands for everything to be healed I feel like a walking muscle spasm and like something is inside my body something don't feel right and I felt this way for a while I remember I was walking in the park and my feet felt strange it's like I was walking crooked even my private areas felt strange and I didn't know what to do the people said I was depressed or stressed but I felt like something else was happening to me I pray for healing and that I get back to myself I pray that I can learn to love myself again and that my body can heal so I can feel happy and comfortable with myself I feel like the neighbors didn't want that for me or my family I pray for strength and to be healed I pray for good health