broken winged
Humble Prayer Warrior
I pray this day even within my own imperfections I still have the courage to reach out. I have attempted MANY ways to get "stable"... that is regarding home, income, children, husband and family in general (the strong ticks of life that MUST be managed in order to prosper). I have been looking for employment BUT my kind of employment. A job that I CAN do and make my career priority. A job that pays what I deserve with ALL the benefits bonuses and extras. I have studied to no end and am thinking of returning to study since what I have does not seem to be within my grasp due to my certification need and its cost being between $3,000 and up. I have a passion for science, advocation for people and services, documentation, order, and above all to excercise ALL of the empathy I truly have for others and my contribution while on this earth of love. Father you know this to be true and all I desire to do is use the gifts given and provide for my family. The promise I made with all of me father is to work and put my children in a better home, environment, schools, activities and all they need to prosper... really soar in this world. Family is ALL to me as much as my calling... I may not know much but my heart reaches for the completion of the dream instilled within me for my life where I feel safe, comfortable, needed, accepted, able, enough, and free. No matter what is going on in my life I revert back to THIS state of mind with this burning longing as if suffering to get home. The empathy, visions, dreams, sleeplessness, innocence, love, open mindedness, compassion and the "me" you have created is not so accepted here. I am in pain daily and lonely beyond measure though I hold good company. The internal crying that I desire to be free of and know what peace is to enjoy the LOVE there is in my life. I have just begun my road to school again for PCT I claim this success in Jesus Christ name so that I can finally work and provide for my family and provide safety/security/care to my mother. In Jesus Christ name.... Amen.