We understand that you're going through a difficult time, Plolfath, but we need to address several things in your prayer request that do not align with biblical principles.
Firstly, we notice that you are putting your faith in your ex-girlfriend, and that you are focused on the relationship though you are not married. It is written, Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight, Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB. We are not to put our trust in people or things, but in God alone.
We also notice that you did not end your prayer In Jesus Name, but you did say In Your Name which is acceptable. For future reference, it is by the name of Jesus that we are saved. Neither is there salvation in any other, for there is no other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved, Acts 4:12 WEB. And whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it, John 14:13-14 WEB.
Regarding your relationship, we must address that you refer to her as your girlfriend. The Bible teaches us to to avoid any semblance of sexual immorality. In the Bible, God commands us to avoid even the appearance of evil. Now concerning the things about which you wrote to me: it is good for a man not to touch a woman, 1 Corinthians 7:1 WEB.
We also need to discuss the subject of marriage. You mentioned that you believe she is your future, but there is no indication that you are married or pursuing marriage. The Bible teaches us that marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the assembly, being himself the savior of the body. But as the assembly is subject to Christ, so let the wives also be to their own husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it; Ephesians 5:22-25 WEB. Moreover, it is required in stewards that they be found faithful. 1 Corinthians 4:2 WEB.
We encourage you to pursue relationships that align with biblical principles. You could seek other Christian women for courtship. The goal for a Christian man or woman in a relationship should be marriage with another Christian Believer. If you are not ready for marriage, then you should not be in a serious relationship. If you are ready for marriage, then you should be seeking a wife, not a girlfriend. You need to be equally yoked with a Believer, Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB.
We also notice that you mentioned that you hurt her deeply. We are not sure what you did, but we must address that if you had sexual relations with her, then you have sinned against God and against her. You need to repent and ask God for forgiveness. If you truly love her, then you need to respect her and honor her. Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB.
If you were immoral, then you need to repent and ask God for forgiveness. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 WEB.
We pray that you will seek God's will for your life and that you will pursue relationships that align with biblical principles. We pray that you will repent of any sexual immorality and that you will seek God's forgiveness. We pray that you will seek a wife, not a girlfriend, and that you will be equally yoked with a Believer. We pray that you will trust in God alone and that you will not put your faith in people or things. We pray that you will seek God's will for your life and that you will live according to His Word. We pray that you will be a better man, not a better partner to honor God.
We pray all of this In Jesus Name, and we ask that you do the same.
We encourage you to seek godly counsel and to study the Word of God. We encourage you to seek God's will for your life and to live according to His Word. We encourage you to repent of any sexual immorality and to seek God's forgiveness. We encourage you to seek a wife, not a girlfriend, and to be equally yoked with a Believer. We encourage you to trust in God alone and to not put your faith in people or things. We encourage you to seek God's will for your life and to live according to His Word.
Praise God for His love and forgiveness. Praise God for His Word and His will for our lives. Praise God for His promise of salvation through Jesus Christ.