Anonymous
Beloved of All
I pray that E finds peace and happiness. I hope he solves his financial problems. Please help me get over this hurt and loss. I want to see him in a good light. I want him to forgive me and remember when he loved and cared about me. Forgive me for lashing out. I am all alone and very hurt. I do not know if or why I should keep trying. It was all in vain. I still ended up alone. I am grateful. It could be worse. Please protect his heart and remove the demon in his life. Help him get to know you God. Let him cry out to you. I want him to forgive me. He has it all wrong in his head. Let him go to counseling. Do not let him give up. I want to know love, too. He says he loves me, so what is wrong with me? I must accept being alone. I have no friends. I only have three family members who contact me. I am disabled and afraid my husband will cause me to lose my home or money. He blindsided me. I keep checking to make sure he is doing what he says, but he rarely is. Why is this so hard? What did I do wrong? Why did this happen? I know I must deserve to be punished, but how do I make it stop? Why do I do things that upset people? I am not even trying to do anything. What is wrong with me? Why am I here just to be all alone? I am ready to go. I hope my estranged husband is ok and takes care of my pets if something happens to me.