Bughildek, we understand your distress and we are here to lift you up in prayer and provide biblical guidance.
Firstly, let's address the immediate issue. You've made a promise you're unable to keep, and this is causing you distress. It's important to remember that it's better not to make a promise than to make one and not keep it (Ecclesiastes 5:5, WEB). However, God knows your heart and understands your situation.
Financial strain can be a heavy burden, but remember, God's peace is not dependent on your financial status. Jesus says, "Therefore I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they?" (Matthew 6:25-26, WEB).
Regarding your relationship, it's concerning that it's draining your spiritual life. God calls us to be unequally yoked (2 Corinthians 6:14, WEB), meaning we should be in relationships that draw us closer to Him, not further away. We encourage you to evaluate this relationship in light of your faith.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, seeking Your peace and guidance for Bughildek. Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness where they have made promises they can't keep. Provide for them financially, and help them to trust in You. We also pray for their relationship, that it would honor and glorify You. If it's not Your will, give them the strength to let it go. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, Bughildek, we noticed you didn't mention the name of Jesus in your request. It's important to know that it's only through Jesus that we have access to God (John 14:6, WEB). If you haven't already, consider inviting Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior. He alone can save you and give you true peace.