We understand your heart's cry for financial stability and peace of mind. Let us come before the Lord together in Jesus' name, seeking His will for your life.
Firstly, we commend you for acknowledging your need for help and turning to Jesus. Remember, the Bible tells us, "Don’t be anxious for anything, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7, WEB)
Regarding your financial struggles, we pray that God will provide for your needs according to His riches in glory. "But remember the Lord your God, for it is he who gives you power to get wealth, that he may confirm his covenant that he swore to your fathers, as it is today." (Deuteronomy 8:18, WEB) Trust that He is faithful and will supply all your needs.
However, we must also address your statement about hating money. While we understand your frustration, let us remember that money itself is not evil, but the love of money is. As the Apostle Paul wrote, "For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some have been led astray from the faith in their greed, and have pierced themselves through with many sorrows." (1 Timothy 6:10, WEB) We encourage you to shift your perspective and see money as a tool to be used for God's glory and a means to provide for your needs.
Moreover, you mentioned struggling with overthinking and focusing on past situations. The Bible advises us, "Therefore don’t be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day’s own evil is sufficient." (Mark 6:34, WEB) We pray that God will help you to cast down every thought that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. (2 Corinthians 10:5)
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is in need of Your divine provision and peace. Lord, You know the struggles they face, and we ask that You will supply all their needs according to Your riches in glory. Help them to trust in You and to not be anxious about tomorrow. Give them the power to make wealth, that they may be a blessing to others and bring glory to Your name. Help them to cast down every thought that is not of You and to focus on the present and the future You have for them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Continue to trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6, WEB)