Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray for healing spiritually mentally and physically. I pray for great health, a new home, a new job, a new car and a new iphone. I pray for healing from mild scoliosis and from flat feet I pray for my teeth to grow back the ones that came out and for them to stop coming out and allow me to start taking better care of myself. I don't brush my teeth everyday because it's painful and I feel like their already messed up and I don't want to walk around with bad teeth I'm a female and I always had nice teeth I pray that they start to look nice again and that I get back to myself. I pray that my feet heal as well ever since my cousin stepped on my toe I felt like I had a muscle spasm and it hasn't been feeling the same I even developed a pinched nerve in my hands and I just want it all to get better for me. I pray that my feet get better I would love to walk and not feel any pain or feel weak or tired I just want to be able to workout do all kinds of exercises and have fun and dance again I haven't done those things in a very long time and I love to do those things. I pray that my overall health gets better and that I start to feel normal again I feel like the man upstairs put a curse on me my head felt strange I moved my head in one position and he dropped something over my head and I felt afraid and this went on for a while now everyday I feel like he do stuff inside his apartment to bother me he know I used to mention the things he would do to other people and he would talk about it to other people and he stopped talking to me I apologized to him and felt as if I lost myself people were mistreating me once I let down my guard and you can't allow people to mistreat you or else they'll keep on doing it. I pray that I get my strength back and my confidence I felt insecure of my body for a long time and I always had a nice body my mother used to say negative things about me and that made me feel uncomfortable she stopped talking to me because I cut my hair and would continue to talk to her mother on the phone and roll her eyes at me and told me I'm messing up my looks it's like the only thing she cared about was looks and that's the only time that she would be nice to me if I dressed nice and looked decent she's not right and I can't be around nobody like that she got issues and I just pray to get back to myself I remember I used to walk around everywhere to get away from her and my brother I pray that I get blessed with a good job so I can keep myself busy I pray that my body heals so that I can workout and be fit and healthy and happy I pray for a new home so I can be at peace and feel comfortable inside my own place I pray to be protected from my enemies and made back into the healthy happy person that I used to be I don't even remember the last time I enjoyed myself I would love to work out and enjoy myself again I pray for great health that the pinched nerve inside my hands heal and that I stop arguing with people and just learn to be happy and move on and stay out of folks homes and stay at my own place my aunt house caused a lot of trauma emotional trauma all sorts and I hated that place I hated that room and felt like her neighbors were very strange and that made me very uncomfortable even the lil kids would stare at me from downstairs they would stare up on the porch and watch me when I would be listening to music I didn't have no peace at all they was nosy and the neighbors downstairs was asking me where I work at and things of that nature I don't like nosy people he had a wife and his wife didn't like she would stare at me with this negative face that bothered me I don't talk to people like that and I would sit on the porch and not be doing anything that whole house was crazy and they would invite people over I felt like there was spirits roaming around that house especially at night and I didn't like that at all I pray for healing and that I get back to myself and heal I was going to the park and all over the place trying to find peace the park isnt a bad place to find peace but I just felt like I needed to find peace from within not from being outside cause you see a lot of things out in public you have to accept who you are and just be happy I pray for great health and to heal from all the trauma that my aunt house caused me she was even toxic and moving strange I don't think she likes me and she was kicking my back in to her.mother.and she shut her door when I was.over her house and she had walked past me and she would be talking to her mother about me saying I was walking around back and forth because I didn't keep myself caged in no room I'm not going to keep myself bound to no room with no TV and if I come out the room to watch tv with the family the seem aggravated and annoyed the energy was off and I felt it with my cousin and with his stepfather very toxic and I felt nervous and unwanted inside.of that house and like I wasted my time going over there very mean people and I didn't like that and my brother would come over and not speak to me they didn't bother him or anyone else in the family but didn't like me I could tell I felt like I made them not like me by coming over there in the first place they not friendly people and they stay to themselves they don't work and just sit around watching.tv all day and on the computer I don't judge because I was once staying over there and doing the same thing with them but I'm better then that I wasnt bought up that way to sit in the room all day and not go outside I has friends and would ride my back and hang out with them on the porch or talk on the phone not saying they didn't do any of those things but it seems like they didn't I like fun things I like to live my life and do things and I just felt like they was mad at me for coming out of the room and walking to the refrigerator to go get something to eat or to sit on the porch they was talking about things like that maybe.my aunt felt uncomfortable because I'm a girl and her man was in the house I don't want that old man I don't do things like that and wasn't even looking at him but I felt like the energy was off with her and I didn't like being over there she was acting cute with her daughter I have to stay away from people like that and take care.of myself and be a better woman