Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray for healing spiritually, mentally, and physically. I pray for great health, a new home, a new job, a new car, and a new iPhone. I pray for healing from mild scoliosis and from flat feet. I pray for my teeth to grow back the ones that came out and for them to stop coming out, allowing me to start taking better care of myself. I don't brush my teeth every day because it's painful, and I feel like they're already messed up. I don't want to walk around with bad teeth. I'm a female and I always had nice teeth. I pray that they start to look nice again and that I get back to myself. I pray that my feet heal as well. Ever since my cousin stepped on my toe, I felt like I had a muscle spasm, and it hasn't been feeling the same. I even developed a pinched nerve in my hands, and I just want it all to get better for me. I pray that my feet get better. I would love to walk and not feel any pain or feel weak or tired. I just want to be able to work out, do all kinds of exercises, and have fun and dance again. I haven't done those things in a very long time, and I love to do those things. I pray that my overall health gets better and that I start to feel normal again. I feel like the man upstairs put a curse on me. My head felt strange. I moved my head in one position, and he dropped something over my head, and I felt afraid. This went on for a while now; every day, I feel like he does stuff inside his apartment to bother me. He knows I used to mention the things he would do to other people, and he would talk about it to other people, and he stopped talking to me. I apologized to him and felt as if I lost myself. People were mistreating me once I let down my guard, and you can't allow people to mistreat you or else they'll keep on doing it. I pray that I get my strength back and my confidence. I felt insecure of my body for a long time, and I always had a nice body. My mother used to say negative things about me, and that made me feel uncomfortable. She stopped talking to me because I cut my hair and would continue to talk to her mother on the phone and roll her eyes at me and told me I'm messing up my looks. It's like the only thing she cared about was looks, and that's the only time that she would be nice to me if I dressed nice and looked decent. She's not right, and I can't be around nobody like that. She got issues, and I just pray to get back to myself. I remember I used to walk around everywhere to get away from her and my brother. I pray that I get blessed with a good job so I can keep myself busy. I pray that my body heals so that I can work out and be fit and healthy and happy. I pray for a new home so I can be at peace and feel comfortable inside my own place. I pray to be protected from my enemies and made back into the healthy, happy person that I used to be. I don't even remember the last time I enjoyed myself. I would love to work out and enjoy myself again. I pray for great health that the pinched nerve inside my hands heals and that I stop arguing with people and just learn to be happy and move on and stay out of folks' homes and stay at my own place. My aunt's house caused a lot of trauma, emotional trauma, all sorts, and I hated that place. I hated that room and felt like her neighbors were very strange, and that made me very uncomfortable. Even the little kids would stare at me from downstairs. They would stare up on the porch and watch me when I would be listening to music. I didn't have no peace at all. They were nosy, and the neighbors downstairs were asking me where I work at and things of that nature. I don't like nosy people. He had a wife, and his wife didn't like her. She would stare at me with this negative face that bothered me. I don't talk to people like that, and I would sit on the porch and not be doing anything. That whole house was crazy, and they would invite people over. I felt like there were spirits roaming around that house, especially at night, and I didn't like that at all. I pray for healing and that I get back to myself and heal. I was going to the park and all over the place trying to find peace. The park isn't a bad place to find peace, but I just felt like I needed to find peace from within, not from being outside because you see a lot of things out in public. You have to accept who you are and just be happy. I pray for great health and to heal from all the trauma that my aunt's house caused me. She was even toxic and moving strange. I don't think she likes me, and she was kicking my back into her mother. And she shut her door when I was over her house, and she had walked past me, and she would be talking to her mother about me, saying I was walking around back and forth because I didn't keep myself caged in no room. I'm not going to keep myself bound to no room with no TV, and if I come out the room to watch TV with the family, they seem aggravated and annoyed. The energy was off, and I felt it with my cousin and with his stepfather. Very toxic, and I felt nervous and unwanted inside of that house and like I wasted my time going over there. Very mean people, and I didn't like that, and my brother would come over and not speak to me. They didn't bother him or anyone else in the family, but they didn't like me. I could tell. I felt like I made them not like me by coming over there in the first place. They're not friendly people, and they stay to themselves. They don't work and just sit around watching TV all day and on the computer. I don't judge because I was once staying over there and doing the same thing with them, but I'm better than that. I wasn't bought up that way to sit in the room all day and not go outside. I had friends and would ride my bike and hang out with them on the porch or talk on the phone. Not saying they didn't do any of those things, but it seems like they didn't. I like fun things. I like to live my life and do things, and I just felt like they were mad at me for coming out of the room and walking to the refrigerator to go get something to eat or to sit on the porch. They were talking about things like that. Maybe my aunt felt uncomfortable because I'm a girl and her man was in the house. I don't want that old man. I don't do things like that, and I wasn't even looking at him, but I felt like the energy was off with her, and I didn't like being over there. She was acting cute with her daughter. I have to stay away from people like that and take care of myself and be a better woman.
