Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray for healing spiritually, mentally, and physically. I pray for great health, a new home, a new job, a new car, and a new iPhone. I pray to be forgiven from all of my sins and to be protected from all of my enemies. I pray that the pinched nerve that I have in my fingers go away and that my body heals. I pray to be healed from mild scoliosis and from flat feet and from the tear that I have in my back. I pray that my teeth grow back—I wasn't brushing them, and they started to fall out and become very sensitive, and I always had nice teeth. I pray that all of my health problems heal and that I get back to good health. Being around toxic people and developing bad habits because of the people around me projecting fear unto me made me not want to take care of myself. I feel like the guy upstairs, which is my neighbor, is preying on me and he doesn't like me and he knows that I can hear the noise that he makes upstairs in his apartment. I went to his apartment a few times, maybe twice, and he didn't answer the door for me once and asked me what I wanted. I never had issues with him until the past couple of years. I pray that whatever he's been doing to me go away and that my mind and body be restored. I can feel him listening to me through the vents, and I know he's listening because if I walk in the house all of a sudden he gets quiet and would make a bunch of noise in one spot. I felt like he didn't like me for a long time. He's not a heterosexual man; he's into men, and that doesn't bother me, but sometimes I feel maybe he's just jealous of me. I never talked down on him or said anything about him until he started to make noise. I used to sit in the hallway in my building, and people used to watch me and talk bad about me, but I didn't feel comfortable inside of my own house, that's why I would sit in the hallway. I miss the person that I used to be. I had a lot of people being envious of me and jealous of me at jobs that I used to work at, and they would try to stop me from getting promoted. It was very bad. This one girl used to try to tell me where to go, and she wasn't my manager, and she would invite people to her events and wouldn't invite me. She would ignore me and would look at other people. It was very toxic, and I felt uncomfortable and out of place working with those people. It was very bad. I got laid off from that job years ago, and it bothers me because I showed up and worked harder than a lot of the people who worked there. They started to cut my hours, so I started to show up late, and that made me get laid off. They paid me my money, and I collect unemployment, but I still feel depressed about the situation, and I pray that I can heal and get my confidence back. I never felt so stressed out. I used to cry in the bathroom all the time, and then I had a childhood friend who wouldn't go out with me and made new friends and didn't even visit me or check on me to see if I was okay, but she would hang out with other women, and she even started talking to my ex-boyfriend and invited him to her birthday dinner, which was not expected. She was strange towards me, and I felt out of place, and I felt like she knew he liked her, which was crazy to me. She was always doing strange things, like he gave her twenty dollars when he saw her in the club and gave me some of his drink, which was strange to me. He could have given me that money. I don't talk to him anymore. He tried to ruin my reputation on Twitter and Instagram, and he was saying that I cheated on him, but I didn't. He had access to my Instagram password and everything. That type of stuff bothered me for a long time, and he used to try to tell me who to hang out with. He went on Twitter and started saying when you choose the wrong friend, and he would post other women as his WCW on Instagram. He was different and still tried to make me look bad. Then I had another friend who went and told my ex-boyfriend that I was seeing another man, and then her sister started dating my ex-boyfriend, and no one told me anything. I felt betrayed. I pray that I can heal from the betrayal because that happened years ago. I still felt hurt. I was around so many toxic people. I just pray to be healed so I can choose the right friends. I pray that I can heal my relationship with the man that I'm with and learn to work on my honesty so me and him can get along better. I pray for strength and protection. I pray to be forgiven from the things that I said about my mother's ex-boyfriend.
