Ifgen
Humble Servant of All
I pray for great health and to be made back into myself. I'm with someone who I love, but I feel like my health is complicating things. I pray that my body heals and that I stop having doubts and hoping for bad things to happen to me. I wished bad things on myself every day and I don't like that and would like to change. I feel guilty for wishing a bad thing on someone and feel like I've been having bad karma. I pray that my body heals and that I get back to myself. I don't want to be in pain or suffer anymore every day. I suffer and I'm tired. I just want to feel okay. I want to feel normal. The chiropractor doctor I went to told me my head weighed ten pounds. I just want to feel normal and okay, and he also told me I had scoliosis and that I lost the curve in my neck on one side. Please send me love, send me healing prayers. I need it. I'm not myself. I felt like I was also wearing big sneakers and it messed my veins up on my feet. It was grabbing on my veins and ankles. The sneaker was too tight and I kept on wearing them for some strange reason. Please pray for me and please help me. I was also diagnosed with schizophrenia, paranoia, and have been in and out of hospitals for a while. I felt like I lost myself. I felt dirty and not clean. I used to use the bathroom on myself because I felt like I had bladder problems and something going on with my uterus. I lost myself and haven't been myself for a while. Doctors said I was paranoid and distracted. Please help me. My cousin messed me up. I felt like her not talking to me bothered me and I haven't been myself for a long time. I would like to feel normal and would like to feel like myself again. Please help me. Something inside of my body is making me ill and I don't like this and want to feel healthy. Please help me so I can be well.