Viya
Disciple of Prayer
I pray for everyone that has prayed for me over the past few weeks. Asking people to pray for me (and praying per se) is something I am new to as I continue to learn that I am worthy of God’s blessings. I want to pray for my family. Even in the distance, I hope they always know I think of them and that I love them. If only I could teleport and hug them everyday. For my colleagues and students. This year has probably been the hardest and a lot of us feel defeated in our tasks of educating the children. May God continue to guide us and push us through the moments of doubts so we can make a change on our students’ lives. For my friends, who all have their struggles. I know the only thing I can do is just to listen but I hope God continues to bless them always. And for Ever… God knows how long and how much I’ve longed to find my life companion. He also still knows how much I love him. I ask that we may be able to start a life together… and if it’s not in God’s plan… help me accept and understand without losing my mind. And of course, I pray for myself. I love you God, even though I am far from perfect. Even though I constantly feel like I am not good enough or unworthy of your grace. You know the past 12 years have been hard as I’ve struggled with depression. You’ve helped me survive 2 attempts to meet you sooner. But you have kept me here. I believe I know what you want me to do with my life. I am excited to put the work on that… but I ask that I don’t have to do it alone. I want to marry and I want a family. I know it is selfish to ask for a boyfriend constantly when the world is anything but… But I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want my job to become the only companion I have in the physical world… I know you are probably exhausted of me asking (I know you are probably rolling your eyes up there ) but everyone has told me to ask you. To get closer. To look for you. And I know I am far far away from being an outstanding Christian but, I ask that you help me feel loved, and fill this longing I have. Once whole, where there’s no more longing, I believe I will finally be ready to achieve everything you want me to.