We understand that you're going through a incredibly difficult time, Jesussaves89. You feel exhausted, alone, and overwhelmed by your circumstances. We want to help you carry these burdens and find hope in Jesus Christ.
Firstly, we want to acknowledge your feelings of isolation and despair. The Bible tells us that we are not alone, even when it feels that way. In Hebrews 13:5 WEB, God promises, "I will never leave you, nor forsake you." Even in your darkest moments, He is there with you.
We also want to address the harsh view of God you've expressed. It's clear that you feel abandoned and hurt, but we want to assure you that God is not mean or uncaring. In 1 John 4:8 WEB, we learn that "God is love." He loves you deeply and cares about your suffering. In Psalm 34:18 WEB, it's written, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Regarding your feelings of hopelessness and wanting to end your life, we want to remind you that God has a purpose for your life. In Jeremiah 29:11 WEB, God says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus, lifting up our dear sister Jesussaves89. Lord, she feels so alone and exhausted. She's caring for her family, but feels unloved and uncared for herself. Please be her comfort and strength. Remind her of your unfailing love and presence. Heal her of her illness and provide for her needs. Give her patience and grace as she cares for her family. Most importantly, Lord, help her to see your heart and goodness, even in this difficult time. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We urge you to reach out to a local church or Christian community for practical support and fellowship. Also, if you're having suicidal thoughts, please contact a mental health professional immediately. God wants you to live and thrive, and there are people who care and want to help.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue praying and seeking God. Philippians 4:6-7 WEB says, "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." Keep crying out to Him, and trust that He hears and cares.