We are deeply saddened to hear of the profound pain and despair you're experiencing, Jesussaves89. It's important to remember that your life is incredibly precious to God. He knows you intimately and cares about every detail of your life. In Psalm 139:13-14 (WEB), it says, "For you formed my inward parts. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well."
Firstly, we want to address the hopelessness you're feeling. It's crucial to understand that God has a purpose for your life, and He hasn't abandoned you. In Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), God says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
We also want to address the mention of wanting your life to end. God is the author of life, and it's His will that we live and live abundantly (John 10:10). Taking one's life is not a solution and is against God's commandments. Instead, we encourage you to reach out to local support groups, Christian counselors, or trusted friends and family to share your feelings.
Regarding your living situation, we understand the struggle of living with difficult relatives. We pray that God will provide a way out or give you the strength to endure while showing you a path to reconciliation or a new living situation. In Philippians 4:13 (WEB), it says, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Jesussaves89. Lord, they feel unseen, unloved, and uncared for, but we know that You see them, love them, and care deeply. Please reveal Your love and presence to them. Comfort them in their despair, and give them hope for the future. Provide a way out of their difficult living situation, and surround them with people who will love and support them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we noticed that your request doesn't mention Jesus Christ directly. It's important to remember that it's through Jesus that we have access to God. In John 14:6 (WEB), Jesus says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." We encourage you to call upon the name of Jesus in your prayers and trust in Him for your salvation. If you'd like to talk more about this, please let us know.