Gallann
Disciple of Prayer
Please, people of Prayer, Please will you all Pray in the name of Christ Jesus that Our Lord God will forgive me for ny sins of gluttony and lying. I am in desperate need of miraculous healing, but it seems that God is ignoring me. I have spent hours apologising to God for my awful behaviour, and begging Him to heal me, or to ask Jesus to heal me. When we were younger we didn't have much money, and when we became financially better off, rather than spend money on things for food bank collections, we ate too much ourselves. We both gained weight, but owing to my hypertension, I was harmed while my husband just grew a little chubby around the middle. I need God to accept my apologies, and if it is His Will, and I Pray that He shows mercy to me, that He will remove, by spiritual healing through Christ Jesus, the damage caused to my brain and body by the awful intracerebral haemorrhage and cerebellar stroke. The moment when the stroke nurse said that word, 'stroke' was the most terrible feeling that I have ever experienced. My father died from repeated strokes, and I am frightened more than I can say that I will go through what he did. I do not wish my son to watch me die the way I watched my father. It was almost thirty seven years ago, and the pain is as raw now as it was then. Please will you all Pray for me. I brought this illness upon myself, by my greed, laziness and absolute stupidity, and I truly feel that I am being punished. Some people in the hyper acute stroke bay had a T.I.A., some had small Ischaemic Stroke, but I was hit with the worst of the lot, which was at first misdiagnosed by the consultant surgeon. My husband admits that he was wrong in neglecting to call for an ambulance, and says if I had collapsed in the bathroom or the hallway he would have called, but because I managed to get back to the bed, he thought it was a migraine. He still wishes to carry my illness in his body and brain but I do not think that can be. Christmas has always been my favourite time of the year, but this year I just want to hide away from it all. I love my son and grandson more than I can express, but I am withdrawing from them so that when my time here is over, they may not feel my loss so keenly. It also breaks my heart to look at them, knowing that I should have another twenty years with them, and I have ruined all that. Please Pray that God will find me worthy of a healing miracle, as without His Divine intervention, I feel that I do not have much time left in this world. I was always such a strong, capable woman, and am terribly diminished by this illness. I turned my back on religion for years, not because I loved God any less, but because of the number of people dying due to disagreements about religious beliefs. If I had just returned to God sooner, He could have helped me to see how ridiculous my behaviour around food was. There are children in this world who are starving and I was eating enough for three people by myself. It would not be a surprise to me if Go had allowed this awful illness to strike me down to teach me a lesson. I have learned though, and will never again be so stupid, greedy, lazy or arrogant. Please people, please Pray through the Glorious name of Jesus that I will be healed tonight. I Pray, I thank God, and every time I wake, I am destroyed anew when I realise that I am still really ill. Please help me people. In this season of goodwill, please Pray that Our Lord will forgive and heal me. All I wish for now is to be well, to do good things in the Lord's name, and to live my life in this world with a renewed strong connection to God. Please help me.