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Foxynge
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I need to move forward from my sin and shame. I am shunned by everyone because of how i reacted to a crisis. I have been called an imbecile and have lost the love of my life. I can't go outside. My voice is not my own. I did not speak up/own up and have lost my voice. No one speaks to me and I mumble all the time as I have lost any authority in my being. I am hated and considered crazy. This is not who/what I was at all. I don't know how to get my "place" back. I don't have any confidence or voice. I lost it and no one will let me forget it, nor can I. I can't talk. Please pray for me and my husband. I did not mean to fall apart. I was surrounded and sunk when it came to sinking or swimming. There is nothing left for me to live/fight for. I have no fight left in me and Iam sorry. I am so sorry for the calamity and disaster I have caused. I feel like a bomber, but my "bomb" was emotional and relationships and shame during a crisis. I apologize with my whole mouth. I need to move forward, but am paralyzed by the consequences. I was an idiot and everyone saw. I was filled with the joy of the lord. I wrote his name in the sand. Lord, I'm sorry. What happened? Please bring back my name/voice. Help so that I can live and help others. All I can taste is my sin and shame. It's in my mouth and all around me. This is not Christ. I want to wash out my life/mouth.