We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and distress you're experiencing. First, we want to assure you that God cares deeply about your feelings and your future. It's important to remember that God has a plan and purpose for each of us, and He wants us to trust Him with every aspect of our lives, including marriage.
In Psalm 147:3 WEB It says, He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wounds.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our sister in Christ who is feeling hurt, rejected, and depressed. We ask for Your healing touch on her life. Comfort her heart, Lord, and remind her of Your unfailing love for her. Help her to see herself as You see her—beautiful, valuable, and precious in Your sight.
Father, we pray for clarity regarding Your will for her life in the area of marriage. If it is Your plan for her to marry, we ask that You guide her steps and bring the right godly spouse into her life. Help her to trust in Your timing and to rest in Your promises.
We also pray for her mental health. Lord, give her the strength and grace to overcome these feelings of depression. Surround her with Your peace and joy, and help her to fix her eyes on You.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
It's wonderful that you acknowledged the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It is only through His name that we have access to God and salvation.
Now, let's address the feelings of rejection and not being good enough. Remember that God created you in His image (Genesis 1:27 WEB), and you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14 WEB). Your worth is not determined by your marital status or how others perceive you. It is determined by the fact that you are a child of God.
Regarding your question about whether it's God's plan for you to never marry, remember that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:9 WEB). He may have a different timeline or plan than what you expect. Trust that He is working everything out for your good (Romans 8:28 WEB).
Lastly, we want to encourage you to seek God's will in all things. If you thought you had met your future husband, pray for God's guidance in that situation. Ask Him to reveal His will and to give you the discernment to understand it. Remember that God wants you to trust Him with all your heart and not lean on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB).
Be strong and courageous. God is with you. In Joshua 1:9 WEB, Haven't I commanded you Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid. Don't be dismayed. for Yahweh your God is with you wherever you go.
We encourage Bible study and Christian counseling if these feelings get too difficult to bear alone. We are reminded that God has a plan for you. God Bless you.