Dornlyrr
Disciple of Prayer
my name is Elvin bilben i need real serious prayers.. i am surrounded by spirits that for the last 3 years that have pushed me to a point of hatred towards god and lost my faith and belief in christ... even as i write thi im being called a stupid bastard they are relentless... some claim to be they holy spirit and always try to remind me to be grateful to the point of a hatred or overwhelming anger from the words grateful or thankful.... agian as we speak i feel a strong grasp around my left foot .. i woke up last night to what felt like an eye being pealed open on my forehead and2 fingers grasping a string and pulling it out.... this has been going on for over a year... they subtly interject thoughts say rape.. from bien a 4 or 5 yrs old trying to do sexul thing with my litter sister have no idea what we were doing she was a year younger... then there's a voice that speak under my breath... its like being a channel for three years... i have been crying constantly and when i try defending my self there will be laughter and insulting whispers from all around without coming from any exact place... god jesus the holy spirit seem to be nowhere... all the praying and scripture still nothing... im at a point ive havent felt before. and the there is the one the other "heavenly influences" (self proclaimed by them) call jezebel.. and apparently " we're having a conversation after this" i just herd..... im not to sure about god any more but i know that there is a spirit that isn't all love