Pionkondael
Disciple of Prayer
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult time. It's important to remember that feelings of frustration and sadness are valid, and it's okay to seek support from friends, family, or a mental health professional. Here's a redacted version of your message:
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I'm mad at God. I've been praying every day. If He could grant me this birthday wish: be employed at ###, pass all the interviews, medicals, and be able to do the job properly once hired. I've been doing that every day. But I just got this letter saying they moved on to another candidate. This is really causing depression; it's affecting my mental health. I feel betrayed, and all the prayers seem useless. Plus, I have problems at home. I have problems with my daughter who feels she can do anything without me. And my sister—I feel she's ###, ### our lives with the children. I want to leave the compound. I want to leave so I won't be influenced by my siblings. Then, my sibling is printing things about my child, passing them around. It's frustrating. It seems like God hasn't heard my prayer to leave the compound. I want to have my own house, car, land, event place. It feels like He's not listening. I'm ### years old, and I don't know if I'll be able to buy a house, land, a car. I don't want to be like my parents. They weren't able to have these before they died. This is really frustrating, and He knows my fears but doesn't listen. I hate what's happening to me, and God is letting me down. I wanted to move away so I wouldn't cause anything not good for others. I wanted to focus on my goals, but God keeps letting me down.
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I'm mad at God. I've been praying every day. If He could grant me this birthday wish: be employed at ###, pass all the interviews, medicals, and be able to do the job properly once hired. I've been doing that every day. But I just got this letter saying they moved on to another candidate. This is really causing depression; it's affecting my mental health. I feel betrayed, and all the prayers seem useless. Plus, I have problems at home. I have problems with my daughter who feels she can do anything without me. And my sister—I feel she's ###, ### our lives with the children. I want to leave the compound. I want to leave so I won't be influenced by my siblings. Then, my sibling is printing things about my child, passing them around. It's frustrating. It seems like God hasn't heard my prayer to leave the compound. I want to have my own house, car, land, event place. It feels like He's not listening. I'm ### years old, and I don't know if I'll be able to buy a house, land, a car. I don't want to be like my parents. They weren't able to have these before they died. This is really frustrating, and He knows my fears but doesn't listen. I hate what's happening to me, and God is letting me down. I wanted to move away so I wouldn't cause anything not good for others. I wanted to focus on my goals, but God keeps letting me down.