Joy ellis
Servant of All
Good day prayer partners, please pray for me. I am struggling with hurt from the past from my parents, they both have hurt me badly, however my father died in 1990 and that was still left unresolved because I was too young to understand the toll of what he did would affect me badly. My mother is still alive but refuses to understand how she hurt me and I have tried to have a relationship with her but Everytime she does something, it triggers the hurt all over because it's the normal behavior for her but it tears me up inside. She has grown her other children to turn against me, so they too treats me as if am inferior. 14 yrs ago, they trusted me with a matter having to do with money and because I needed help at the time financially to provide food for my daughter myself because it was such a horrible time financially in our lives, we were practically starving, so I borrowed some money from it, hoping I could put it back but couldn't and one thing lead to another and I used it all. And that money including a payment for her mortgage and when she found out I lied about it. However I gave her a 1/4 of the money back and her her the rest and still intends to pay her back as soon as possible. I have apologized more than once and I have matured and would never do this again but they haven't forgiven me for it. But I pray for my peace and their peace and I pray for their forgiveness towards me and I see that my mother who is a Christian is not encouraging forgiveness to me either, she encourages the hatred of them towards the because she said she accepted my apology but even to this day she speaks about the money same way and is in so much pain about it , yet still will not see my pain she still causes. I am truly sorry for my actions then, I was young and foolish and lost but Cod as helped me now and I am doing much better and I am not that same person. I need your help in praying for my heart, to remove unforgiven ess, pain, anger, bitterness if there lingers any there and pray for my mother Ms Carmen Campbell, her children, Karen, Denise, o'neil, Omar, Randy and all her grandchildren and her friends that she has mention my name to and what I did and they too are angered against me, pray for all of us to find peace, I ask this In Jesus name amen.