Judor
Disciple of Prayer
Hello, I am a ### year old woman. I became a believer in March, 1977. I heard from the Lord very early, as I saw it, in my Christian walk. The Lord gave me instructions to do certain things, like speaking to people in a street ministry. Sometime around 2011, I heard Him for the last time. He said to me, " Redeem the time for the days are evil " I believed that He said this because around that time, I was wasting a lot of time playing games on Facebook.
It took me a little while to think that I must be in trouble with the Holy Spirit because, when I saw the results of my wasting time, I prayed and prayed asking the Lord to please forgive me. At that time, it was like the Holy Spirit just left me. He didn't come back when I repented for everything that I thought that I could have done to grieve Him.
Well, that was 2011 and now it's 2025 and I still cannot feel His Presence or neither do I know my purpose anymore.
I have been diagnosed with emphysema and I spend most days lying down so I can breathe. I pray
and pray
but still He is silent and the worst, I don't even sense His guidance. I am trying to live in faith believing that He has a reason but it's getting harder because, if I'm wrong, and I have some sin still, I could wind up missing heaven and never hearing " Well done my good and faithful servant "
It took me a little while to think that I must be in trouble with the Holy Spirit because, when I saw the results of my wasting time, I prayed and prayed asking the Lord to please forgive me. At that time, it was like the Holy Spirit just left me. He didn't come back when I repented for everything that I thought that I could have done to grieve Him.
Well, that was 2011 and now it's 2025 and I still cannot feel His Presence or neither do I know my purpose anymore.
I have been diagnosed with emphysema and I spend most days lying down so I can breathe. I pray

