We understand your struggles and we are here to support and pray with you, Anonymous. Firstly, let's address your desire to listen to God more clearly. The Bible tells us in John 10:27 WEB, "My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me." Spend time in His word and in quiet reflection, for God often speaks to us through Scripture and in the stillness of our hearts.
Regarding your temptation, remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 26:41 WEB, "Watch and pray, that you don't enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak." Temptation is a part of the human experience, but God always provides a way out (1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB). Stand firm in your faith and resist the devil, and he will flee from you (James 4:7 WEB).
Your struggle with addiction is not unseen by God. He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18 WEB). Remember, our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19 WEB), and we should honor God with our bodies. Seek help from trusted Christian counselors or support groups, and trust that God can heal and restore you.
Fear of losing your love for Christ is a valid concern, but be encouraged by the fact that nothing can separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38-39 WEB). Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith (Hebrews 12:2 WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up Anonymous to you. Strengthen their ears and heart to hear your voice more clearly. Deliver them from the temptations they face and break the chains of addiction in their life. Cast out any fear they have of losing their love for you, Lord, and fill them with your perfect love. Help them to trust in you and to lean on your understanding. We pray all these things in the powerful name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Lastly, we noticed that your request did not mention the name of Jesus. It is only through His name that we have access to God and salvation (Acts 4:12 WEB). If you have not already, consider inviting Jesus into your life as your personal Lord and Savior. This is the first step in a lifelong relationship with Him.