Bemenra
Humble Prayer Partner
Many of you have been praying for me. TY: I’m in Alaska, thank God. I’m just under so much stress. I mean a lot of stress. I surprised I’m making it. I’m alive, somehow! Im living in the shelter, very humbling. Hotels are $400/Night. I’m teaching school and the demands are almost overbearing. It’s a new job so it’s difficult learning everything. No pay for another week. At night, I’m doing door dash. I’m just trying to keep my head above. I have a rental car that I’m using. For some reason, the police called my father about a rental car. He was my emergency contact, so I need to contact the company today to figure out what’s going on. I am just so stressed. As I type I’m laying on a 3” mattress in shelter. There are prob 20 men sleeping all around (snoring, bad dreams, etc); it’s like a bad nightmare. I just want to cry. I feel like Satan is just laughing at me as I try and cope. Part of me just wants to fly back to my father’s house. I’m at the point I just can’t take it. My wife left me and took my children as I have stated again here. I miss her and them. I can’t believe it all. It’s all so much pain. I know God loves me but sometimes I have doubts. God I’m in so much pain… where are you?? I feel bad coming here again but I need prayers… I wish God would grab my hand, physically tell me… “it’s okay!” I just feel so tired, lost right now. I’m trying so hard.