Megeimma
Disciple of Prayer
Hi my name is John, I came here desperately searching for prayer to regain feelings in my heart I had evil blasphemous thoughts I would never act on intrusive thoughts and by impulse at times i would think them then suddenly I felt something in my heart. I'm not sure its the unforgivable sin I don't think so but I have little to no feeling in my heart I need Jesus to help me feel those again. I want to continue to serve the Lord and follow Jesus's teachings even in this state. I humbly ask that you pray for my healing that I need. I love God but I can't prove it if my heart is unfeeling of emotion even with Jesus in my life guiding me I had little emotion but he gave just enough, so now I feel empty. I am also afraid to sin and do not want to sin. I want to have the energy as before. I thought I knew God and then I decided I wanted to know him more and trying to understand him more by reading his word. I took out things in my life that I was living in sin as a Christian and didn't realize how bad it actually was. Now I had blasphemous thoughts and learned there was actually a sin that cannot be forgiven which is scary and like a week ago and thought the worse thing about God possible and I had conviction in my heart but I don't have that feeling anymore its like it left my chest. I believe this a hardened heart I am asking desperately for prayers to help. I believe Jesus is Lord and I still want to use my new knowledge of God to live life according to the word but I am also asperger social anxiety and its hard for me to understand certain things. I need prayers and reassurance to keep my mind calm I have been freaking out over this.