Rudander
Disciple of Prayer
I need prayer for financial help and just a little less anxiety and fear of being homeless. This year I've lost my car and filed bankruptcy so I'm not as in debt as I was but I literally have no assets, no savings, no safety net of any kind. I work full time and make $17.00 an hour to pay rent and utilities. I can barely afford food or any other needs. I don't see any way up out of this situation. I'm a middle aged female, my kids are grown. I am so far down I'm one pay check away from being homeless. And I'm scared to death of being homeless. I can't afford to be sick from my job. I am a believer. I know I have not always made good life decisions. I don't feel like I deserve better. I just deeply hope for mercy and grace and a way up from this situation. I've experienced a lot of grief and hardship over the years but I feel further defeated than I ever thought possible at this point. I need a miracle. I have no relatives. I was raised in foster care. I was widowed in my twenties and survived that. I've gone through divorce and tragedy. My pastor passed away from COVID. Through everything I thought things would work out but I'm weary of the fight to survive. I attempted suicide in 2022 and while I know that isn't the answer sometimes I just don't want to keep fighting the daily battle to survive, to have a roof over my head, to feel safe and secure. I live in an anxious state. I worry more than I should. I'm stuck in survival mode and my spirit just wants rest.