Anonymous
Beloved of All
I need my mind cleansed. Just the reminder of these idiots with their disgusting idea of love is sickening and exasperating, and leaves a bad taste in my mouth. May God do a miracle on their behalf and have them stop being so pathetic. Also, so that they stop always causing others harm, i.e. me and others related to me. The worst thing is they dont realise how pathetic they are. They think all my reactions due to their disgusting behaviour and sins is ME being attacked by Satan, ME having some mental/emotional/spiritual/phsycial problems, ME with some mysterious pain etc. etc. THEY THINK! I dislike them more than neone else I ever have, beside sb in my family. I've given up talking sense into them. Words on them are the biggest waste. Yet my high ideals and conscience and standards - much greater than theirs - cannot stand it. (For one more infuriating time: JUST GIVE UP JUST STOP I CANT STAND YOU STOP ASKING GOD FOR MY HEART. You'll never have it. Never, ever, ever, ever!!!!!!! You stop insulting me and my future spouse, you repulsive numbskulls. I even almost wanted to have my brothers beat you up. You two are the biggest losers hankering after someone, not only after everything else, but also that that someone is already basically TAKEN. According to GOD. How dare you insult me and God. That alone is such disrespectful behaviour (which was before any of MINE followed, so dont blame me and dont use me as an excuse you morons). Flippin hell. You're the most sick ppl I've seen, next to psychos and criminals. I can't stand you. Stop begging God. I wanted to see if you FINALLY got the message but NO! You two are the most hopeless losers I've seen. When will you understand how bad you are for my health, life, everything. I do NOT like you, I have ZERO interest in either of you a romantic interest! You pigheaded fools. Just at the end of last year, and again recently, you've made my blood pressure go up so many times and had me lose so many brain cells (you lose them by the thousands every time you get angry!). It'd be thanks to you if I got Alzheimer's (even 20's get it now!). You always give me stress, you always give me headaches, you always make my blood boil, you always disrupt my peace, you always offend my senses, you always make me wanna puke, you always interfere in my prayer life and thus cause others in my life to suffer, you are just a TOTAL MINUS. How dare you make me angry and interfere in my spiritual training, also. The way you give me wrinkles would have me looking like 70 before I even turn 40. You two are the absolute worst I've had in my life. When will you get it! And if you ever foul-mouth God in public like that again, I'll personally put a curse on your life. I didn't accuse and insult Him after all YOU idiots did to me and my life - what right have you to be angry and blaspheme Him. How DARE you call Him names. You should've called ME names instead. (and so prove your "love" false, as well. Though it's already been proven in a hundred ways Im sick of mentioning nemore. And even if it had been 100% all genuine, I still wouldn't care for it). You just choose the worst things to do, don't you. I thought you couldn't make yourself lower in my sight, but obviously I underestimated your ability to sink. You shot right through the floor ages ago, but now you've reached about the 20th floor below ground level, I think. It really saddens me to think God gave you as a brother. Too bad it couldn't totally be my own informed choice at the start. You two are total numbskulls. You just dont get it, do you: There's nothing any woman (and me, more than neone else) hates more than pathetic whiny males endlessly begging for her love WHEN she has made it absolute clear that she has no interest PLUS loves another. Why are you so stupid. AND what disgusts me even further is how you think you have some kind of rightful claim on my affection and interest when - what? Just what have you ever done for me in the last 6-7 years, excuse me??? How were you a friend? Esp. you the first loser. How have you ever been anything worth mentioning in my life - much less anything close to a friend? Just exit your stupid fantasies and dreams. That's all it is. That you would be so presumptious as to think you still or can have a special big place in my heart, and my life, even above my new friends. Well, listen, you shall never be more to me than my new bros or even their equal. So drop those dreams and silly nonsense, seek God and grow up. Bye.
