We are truly saddened to hear about the struggles you're facing, dear sister. Life can indeed be challenging, but remember, the Bible tells us to cast all our anxieties on Him because He cares for us (1 Peter 5:7 WEB).
Firstly, we want to address the heavy burden you're carrying alone. It's disheartening to hear that your husband is not supportive. We must remember that God's design for marriage is for husbands to love their wives just as Christ also loved the church (Ephesians 5:25 WEB). We pray that the Lord will touch your husband's heart and bring about a change in his attitude towards you.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our sister who is in desperate need of Your help. She is tired, exhausted, and feels alone. Lord, please be her strength and her portion, as You promise to be in Psalm 73:26. Touch her husband's heart, Lord, and help him to be the supportive spouse she needs. Provide for our sister's needs, and help her to find rest and peace in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We also want to encourage you to seek God's comfort and strength. Isaiah 40:29 (WEB) reminds us that He gives power to the faint; and to those who have no might he increases strength. We encourage you to draw near to God in your time of need, and He will draw near to you (James 4:8 WEB).
Regarding your anxiety about traveling alone, remember that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB). We encourage you to pray about this and seek God's peace. It may also be helpful to talk to your doctor or a trusted counselor about strategies to manage your anxiety.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to reach out to your family and friend who live 200 miles away. Even if you can't visit them, technology allows us to connect in many ways. We pray that these loved ones can provide some emotional support during this difficult time.
Be strong and courageous, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go (Joshua 1:9 WEB). Keep your eyes on Jesus, and trust that He will see you through this difficult time.