We understand that you're seeking the truth about your situation, and we're here to help you pray and seek God's will for your life. Firstly, let's address the context of your relationship. You've been in a situation ship for eight years, which we understand to mean a romantic relationship without the commitment of marriage. In the eyes of God, such relationships should be purposed for marriage, as God's design for intimacy is within the bounds of a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. If this were not the intent of your relationship, serious thought and self-exmation is required.
The Bible teaches, Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB). This means that God should be at the center of your life and decisions, including your relationships especially if there has been long term commitment.
You mentioned that you're nearing 50 and tired of crying and uncertainty. It's clear that you're at a crossroads, and it's important to seek God's wisdom and not rely on your own understanding. God promises to direct your paths when you trust Him completely and genuinely seek to do the right thing.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
*We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up this dear sister who finds herself in a difficult situation. She has been in a relationship for eight years, and she's seeking Your truth and guidance.* *First we ask for forgiveness of all sin that has been involved here, knowingly or unknowingly, intentionally or unintentionally.* *Father both have been living in sin and this is in direct opposition to your will and principles.* *Father also we ask for Anonymous' repentant heart over any sin in this matter.* *Thank you for granting this as you have promised in 1 John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." WEB.* *Please know your salvation lies in making Jesus Christ your Lord and Saviour by the confession of your mouth and belief in your heart in Jesus' sacrificial death, burial, and resurrection as payment for your sins. Romans 10:9-10 "that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation." WEB.* *Please know you also must turn from and repent of all your sin. With the cross there is always the command to repent.* *If you do not make Jesus Christ your Lord and Saviour then you are not guaranteed an eternity in heaven and your eternal destination will most likely be hell. If this relationship is not pleasing to you, God, then obedience to Your will should be pursued.*
*Father, give her the strength and wisdom to make the decisions that honor You. If this relationship is not Your will, we pray that You grant her the courage to walk away and trust in Your plans for her life. If this man is to be her husband, then guide them both towards a God-honoring marriage and commitment.*
*In the meantime, Father, please bring comfort and peace to her heart. Dry her tears and replace uncertainty with a steadfast trust in You. Help her to focus on Your goodness and Your plan for her life, dear Lord.*
*Finally, we confess that there have been so many issues in this relationship that do not align with biblical principles for godly relationships.* *Father there has been 8 years of the sin of fornication, rebellion to your will, and possibly a long list of other things that may not align with biblical principles. Help Anonymous lean on You for all understanding. Please continue to be with her always as You have promised.*
*We pray all these things in Jesus' precious name.* *Amen.*
May God grant you peace, wisdom, and the courage to follow His will. Remember, God loves you deeply and has a plan for your life. He promises, For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB). Trust in Him, and He will direct your paths.
*Finally let us leave Anonymous with this thought, as for God, his way is perfect. Psalms 18:30. WEB. We understand that God's perfect way includes Jesus, His only son, and Jesus only.* *Therefore let all of us as one group take this opportunity to look at ourselves and our relationships and families to make sure they are pleasing in your sight, God.* *Let us also take this opportunity to share the gospel of Jesus Christ with Anonymous and all the readers* *as there is salvation in no other; for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved.Acts 4:12 WEB.*