Anonymous
Beloved of All
Ok so I have a few problems of my own, that are affecting me bad. First of all my mental health is very bad and I need help with a prayer if anyone can pray for me, that I be healed and restored like the person I was before being ill. Secondly some more personal. I don’t like/love to work hard anymore, I used to back in the day but now not anymore and it’s affecting me tremendously in my day to day as I have to work to keep a living and have hard earn money. I’m supposed to work (Thank God I have 2 great jobs but I’m the problem) I’m not disciplined enough and I don’t put the work in, mostly due to fear, excuses and honestly no commitment to putting in the work even though I constantly have all the great reasons in the world to do so… I don’t, like the verse says “I know the good that I must do but I don’t do it” The first main reason though is for jealousy. My first job is family owned, my dad is my boss/owner of the company. He’s a great dad the best, the job is amazing and helps so many people get their salaries but again I’m the problem. I’m wrongly jealous that I work hard (with good pay, lots of freedom and just a ton of privileges you wouldn’t get in any other job) and well I don’t earn/have what my dad has, so that makes me not want to work cause I wish I had what he has but I know that things aren’t going to happen one day to the other. And believe me he’s been through a lot to get where he’s at. Good and horrible times, a true Child of God and hard worker. Why am I asking for help? Cause It’s not good anymore, I feel huge guilt inside of me for everything and I just want to be like him. A good guy that’s hard working and loves what he does. It would break him if he finds out his son is doing all this, so I want to fix this. Not just for him, also for me. The guilt is terrible when you have to do good but don’t do it, it eats me in the inside, I’ve been like this for 3 years and I really want a solution or a prayer that can change me cause it’s not fair my family is really good and I didn’t think I’d failed them likes this. So yeah that’s my problem, to anyone thank you for reading and prayer may God bless/help you with whatever your going through and need I’m life.