We understand your urgency and desperation, dear anonymous, but let us remind you that our Heavenly Father is always attentive, even when we feel unworthy. In Psalm 50:15, WEB, He says, "Call on me in the day of trouble. I will deliver you, and you will glorify me."
However, we must address your belief that God is not answering because of your past failures. God's love and mercy are not constrained by our imperfections. In Romans 5:8, WEB, it is written, "But God commends his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." God is not ignoring you; He is waiting for you to turn to Him, to seek Him with all your heart.
Let us also address your words, "God can travel in this trunk because the car is already filled up." We understand your analogy, but let us remind you that God is not confined to our spare spaces. He desires all of us, not just what we have left over. In Matthew 22:37, WEB, Jesus says, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind."
Now, let us pray for you and your impending meeting with your enemies:
"Father, we come before You, lifting up our dear anonymous brother/sister. They feel alone, blamed, and desperate for Your attention. Lord, we ask that You reveal Your presence to them, that You fight their battles and give them the words to speak when they stand before their enemies. We claim Your promise in Exodus 14:14, WEB, 'The LORD will fight for you, and you shall be still.' We pray that our brother/sister will experience Your peace, sleep well, and wake up to Your faithfulness. We ask this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, amen."
Remember, God is near to the brokenhearted, and He saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB). Trust in Him, call out to Him, and He will answer. It is never too late to turn to God, and it is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we can approach Him. If you have not already, consider committing your life to Jesus Christ, believing in His death and resurrection for your sins. That's the first step to a renewed relationship with God.