Theysee111
Disciple of Prayer
For ### years I have been awakened from my slumber in ### I went through periods of depression in ### I had spiritual attacks in my sleep and home my husband started abusing me .. God revealed and woke me up to the truth in ### since then I have been under attacks mentally and psychically I have been in isolation to work on healing I've learned so much but the attacks won't stop my ex and I separated and in ### I got pregnant post separation after ### years since our daughter's birth we never used protection we tried for baby 2 and nothing so we made peace with that. I took it as a sign that we were meant to stay together and I told him I'm ready I asked him to get his life together and let's try this again. After all he was the love of my life I still love him despite everything he's done … anyway long story short he went on to continue his single life I later found out he was seeing this girl older than him whom I suspected he had an affair with and later confirmed I saw them together while pregnant… this girl knew of me the whole time anyway he was under her power from that point on I saw him less and less so confused and lost in the brain fog. I never stopped loving him and he never left me alone he moved to ### without telling me in ### and in ### he came back to see us. Call me crazy but every time he sees me I know he sees himself and whatever demon has a hold on him hates me but the love we had was real .. anyway he came back to hurt me and it backfired on him he exposed himself I chose my kids' safety over his controlling ways and did what needed to be done to stay safe. The attacks from his partner won't stop I refuse to let this have any power over my life I'm tired but fighting my love is there I don't feel complete I want my life back I want freedom what's missing I want to live still for once I want my body to feel safe I'm a single mom I raise ### girls and ### boy I want to be more present it's hard I need healing I need to see what's holding me back or what demonic forces are affecting me I forgive them but what do I do plz I'm desperate and need prayers