We understand that you have been going through spiritual warfare since you came to Christ in 1995. It is very often that those that follow Christ find trials to be more and more accute. This is not outside of scripture however. Trials are also an avenue to strengthen and maturity of one's faith. We must remember the words of James, "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you fall into various temptations, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. Let endurance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing". Your experiences are not uncommon for believers, and we want to encourage you to remain steadfast in your faith. Prayers are not always answered as quickly as we would like to think.
Firstly, we want to address the fact that you are being attacked, mocked, and ridiculed. This is not surprising, as Jesus Himself warned us, "If the world hates you, you know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. But because you are not of the world, since I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his lord.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will keep yours also" John 15:18-20 WEB.
Regarding your health, we want to encourage you with the words of the Apostle Paul, who also suffered from a physical ailment. He wrote, "Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in injuries, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then am I strong" 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 WEB.
We must also remember that though God is in complete charge of our lives, that we are also composed of more than 95 percent of how we live our physical lives. Many Christian believers neglect how they live physically and expect God to protect them from their own negligence. This applies but not limited to what is eaten and drank. Our physical bodies are a temple of the Holy Spirit and should be treated as such. Spiritual warfare may be in addition to the failure of diet and nutrition, especially in a supermarket world. We must also remember the apostle Paul's exhortation to call upon the saints to especially pray, in which there is agreement on how one lives their lives. This must be taken into consideration with faith and obedience.
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Let us pray together for you:
"Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our fellow believer who is experiencing relentless spiritual attacks. We plead the blood of Jesus over their life, health, and circumstances. We rebuke the enemy and his assignments against them, and we command the dark amounts of blackness to be scattered in the blessed name of Jesus. Lord, strengthen their faith and give them the power to endure, according to Your word. Help them to remain steadfast and immovable, always abounding in Your work, Lord. Surround them with Your favor and provision of other holy men and women as a witness of Christ's church. We ask that any area of darkness in this Christian's life be exposed to the light of Jesus and conviction if needed. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."