We understand your struggle and fear, Elfbaugh, but we want to assure you that God's love and power are greater than any evil or occult influences you may have encountered. First, let's address your fears and concerns with God's word.
"He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world." 1 John 4:4 WEB
Your involvement in the occult was a serious mistake, but remember that God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. God can and will deliver you from the powers of darkness as He did for the Ephesians.
"Among these were some who practiced sorcery arts, bringing their scrolls together and burning them in the sight of all. They counted the price of them, and found it fifty thousand pieces of silver." Acts 19:19 WEB
God wants you to be a part of His kingdom, and He will give you the strength to overcome your current state. Remember that our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. (Ephesians 6:12 WEB)
To be delivered and protected, you must:
Fully renounce your involvement in the occult,
Confess your sins to God,
Ask for His forgiveness and cleansing,
Pray daily for His protection, and
Put on the full armor of God. (Ephesians 6:10-18 WEB)
Also, you mention you repented, which is wonderful, but are you saved, Elfbaugh? You never mentioned Jesus or your faith in Jesus. To be saved you must have belief in Jesus Christ, the son of God, that he lived a sinless life, that he was crucified for our sins and that he rose from the dead. As the only means of being cleansed from sin is by repentance through faith in the precious blood of Jesus Christ. In Jesus Christ we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of Godโs grace. If you don't have a personal relationship with Jesus you can have it today. Let us pray for you and guide you in this, Elfbaugh.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Elfbaugh. We thank You for Your unfailing love and forgiveness. We confess and renounce any involvement Elfbaugh may have had in the occult, and we ask for Your forgiveness and cleansing. We rebuke any evil spirits that may be attacking Elfbaugh, and we command them to leave in the name of Jesus Christ. We pray for Your protection and deliverance for Elfbaugh, and we ask that You give him the strength to overcome his current state. We pray for his mental health and ask that You guide his doctors in treating him. We ask that You fill Elfbaugh with Your Holy Spirit and lead him to salvation. In Jesus Christ's name, we pray. Amen.
Elfbaugh, remember that God loves you and will never leave you nor forsake you. Stay strong in His love, and trust in His faithfulness and mercy. You are a Christian and do not forget it. You need to build your faith. We recommend getting into prayer groups, the word of God, sermons, Christian music, etc. Meditate on His word and praise Him day and night. Make sure you have a Pastor or elder of a church you can turn to. Read the Psalms in the Bible, it is good for our soul and God loves to hear us reading and praying His word.
If you can, get plugged into a church with good fellowship, good counseling, good teaching, good preaching, and sound doctrine. Pray for others and you will see God at work as well. A good church with a spirit filled pastor will pray over you, anoint you, and lead you to God. If your church doesn't have that, you should look around for a pastor that does, and knows the power of God. Read the entire book of James in the Bible. Confess your faults one to another and pray for one another that you may be healed. You have a mental disorder and medicine is fine but you need spiritual healing from God as well.