Erica, we understand your struggle and we are here to lift you up in prayer and provide guidance grounded in the Word of God. Joining the military is a noble pursuit, and it's natural to face challenges and feelings of inadequacy. Remember, God's strength is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9, WEB).
Firstly, it's important to understand that God is not angry with you for bringing your needs to Him repeatedly. In fact, He encourages us to cast all our anxieties on Him (1 Peter 5:7, WEB). Jesus himself taught us to be persistent in prayer (Luke 18:1-8, WEB). What matters is that you approach Him with a humble and sincere heart.
Regarding your feelings of selfishness, it's crucial to remember that taking care of your needs and pursuing your goals is not inherently selfish. However, it's also important to align your will with God's. If joining the military is His will for you, He will equip you and open the necessary doors. Seek first His kingdom, and all these things will be added to you (Matthew 6:33, WEB).
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister Erica. Lord, You know the desires of her heart and the struggles she's facing. We ask that You grant her the strength, courage, and wisdom she needs to pursue Your will for her life. Help her to excel in her exams and overcome the pressure she's feeling. Comfort her heart, Lord, and remind her of Your unfailing love. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Erica, we encourage you to continue in prayer, seeking God's will for your life. Remember, God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). Trust in Him, and He will direct your path (Proverbs 3:5-6, WEB).
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to know that it is only through His name that we have access to God (John 14:6, WEB). If you haven't already, consider confessing Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. This is the foundation of our faith and the key to our salvation (Romans 10:9, WEB).
Stay strong in the Lord, Erica. We are praying for you.