Dear one , ask Jesus into your life , ask Him to forgive you of your sins { the holy word of God which is the bible tells us that ALL have sinned and come short of the glory of God } then repent and that means to turn away from those sins and you can do this with the Lord's help , then you have become a new person in Jesus Christ and you have become one of His children and the bible tells us that Jesus will be our help in our time of trouble and that He will NEVER leave us or forsake us . Pray often { which is just talking to the Lord } and find a good bible believing church to attend and surround yourself with other believers that will encourage your walk in the Lord . When we call out to Jesus , He hears and He will intervene in our lives . Do not take your own life or your child's , this will send you to hell for an eternity , and that is just what satan wants , he wants you very soul . Trust in God , He is our ONLY hope in this world and He loves you more than you will ever know because He sent His Son Jesus to die on the cross for all of our sins to reconcile us back to holy heavenly Father . You will never regret turning your life over to God because He wants the very best for you and your Son . The bible tells us that He came to give us life , and that more abundant , and He is not a man that lies . Blessings !